format_quote Originally Posted by
Kawlah
Salaam brothers and sisters
I am a revert sister who has suffered from mental illness and has lost her iman several times through this. I went through phases of belief or disbelief according to my mental state.
I am not sure what to do, I have said shahada multiple times in my life because I apostated and then came back. I have lost my muslim contacts in my area because I have been so unstable in my past.
Now, my mental issues have been under control for about a two year period and I want to come back into the community. But how do I do this?
I have said shahada today, done Ghusl and prayed salat al Duhr.
I know there's a hadith that says that when you are insane the pen is lifted (ie the sins are not recorded) but I feel very ashamed and guilty regardless.
So what should I do now to return to the deen? I live in the Netherlands, are there any sisters here that would want to help me knowing my history?
Assalamo alaykum
If you became confused during your illness then Allah is the Forgiving Merciful, you know that when a person's mind stops normal working, the angels put the pen down.
One thing important I must remind you. I have seen such cases where a father or both parents become so selfish, especially when they want to make a capable, earning and sincere daughter, an object of sacrifice for the benefits of their sons, then they practice all types of injustices, both verbal and practical. Thus the sincere daughter becomes internally wounded. At such occasions, if she comes across such hadeeth which makes father equal to God (May Allah protect us from shirk, aameen. There is no true hadeeth making a father or husband equal to God.), then Satan will attack the wounded mind and heart of the suffering daughter putting her in doubt about the Justice of Allah. So she, if ignorant from religion, will become angry about Allah's Commands.
Here I want to tell you that Allah's Justice is very pure and impartial. Such father and mother will surely be judged. Then the daughter will be given reward and parents will not escape the Justice of Allah. Please remember that it is the justice of Allah which will admit people to Hell. When such sincere daughter comes to know from the Quraan and Sunnah that her father and/or mother are in danger of the Hell-Fire, she starts crying for them and all of her anger goes away.
Thus when Satan turns your anger from your father to Allah, you must think and believe in the impartial justice of Allah from which even an unjust father and mother cannot find refuge.
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format_quote Originally Posted by
talibilm
Sister,
but its the father's dua that there is no curtain behind Allah & the father .
Assalaamo alaykum
"No curtain between father and Allah"
is a fully wrong statement. Allah spoke even to the Prophets alaihim salaam, from behind a curtain.
If you mean that no curtain between Allah and father's du'aa, then please bring full hadeeth with evidence.
I read that there is no curtain between Allah and the du'aa of mazloom (the oppressed one). In this thread, the cause of a daughter's loosing eemaan is the oppression from father. So the daughter is oppressed (mazloom) and the father is the oppressor up to such extent that he is attacking her eemaan. Do you think the father is given high position in Islam just blindly?