:bism: (In the Name of God, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful)
:sl: (Peace be upon you)
From a practical standpoint, I would think you should continue your semester as it has already started and you're one month out, and I imagine it has already been paid with that money; also, we do not get punished for that which we did not know, but since you've discovered the truth now, make sure to repent and converse with Allah. But before next semester can start, acquire a part-time job and enroll yourself instead in a community college; you would have to discipline yourself to put yourself with your money through college and no doubt it would be harder on you and make sure to use your time wisely. However, I know some of my friends who did exactly that successfully, and they love the fact that they have no loans which they have to pay back. Also, make sure you are meeting with your counselor to ensure you have a goal with the courses you'll be taking. By your second semester, you should have a good idea of what profession you want to pursue and a plan as to how to make that happen. That said, with anything in which confusion arises in your heart, I advise
Istikhaara because that is you basically consulting Allah and Allah guaranteeing that whatever would happen subsequently is going to be best for you in terms of
dunya,
deen, and
aakhirah.
:wa: (And peace be upon you)
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Mustafa16
Should I go to college? Should I quit? Should I save up money? Should I get a part time job job? Should I quit until I can find a low wage job to save money? Should I wait until my mother has enough money? Should I get a blue collar job? My mother has done this behind my back, and I only a few weeks ago found out, and a brother in the Gulen movement who I believed was righteous advised me to get the loan because education is required. I have started to grow disillusioned with some aspects of, if not most people of, if not all of the Gulen movement. What should I do????? I'm well a month into my semester? (Or 3 weeks) should i repent? I also think this may be a perfect time to repent because i only just started going back to friday prayer, becaue previously i was afraid of crowds, or overslept due to illness, or couldn't arrange a ride, or MAYBE was just lazy (Allahu alem). what should i do?????