What to do if I have strong obsessions with reversal of time?

[Nitro Zeus]

I'mso sorry for being obsessive with reversal of time. I know that Quran teaches us that time can never retrieved once you have done something bad in past.

Before when I came to Bucharest from Kuwair, I had no problem with reversal of tine, actually I did not even think of reversal of time. But when I came to Bucharest, my new class mates started to ask things related about pornography, music and so on and I did not know anything to answer, I was like a dump ass that time, but after I graduated the elementary school, I said to myself: "No, goddamn it no, if I wabt my history not to be repeated, I have to watch some pornography, movies and listen to songs so that I can be no longer mocked so badly by others" but when I have watched, I got addicted to it and now I'm unable to quit.

And before, I used to do silly things that are memorable without even thinking of consequences, I was an ignorant that time. But now, I when I want to be a famous Youtuber, have in collection diplomas for excellence in International Olympics in mathematical stuff, I dony have them, and that is because of my stupidy that I did not worked in past and now I'm suffering consequences. And now I've became also slacker in religion and ib studies due to laziness, and now I'm trying to figure out of solutions for recovering the lost time.

And when I see bad things that is happening now in present because of ISIS, now I feel shy to tell to others that I am a Muslim because I dont want to be confused with ISIS at sll cost, ISIS are bad reprezentation to us. And some non Muslims starts to mock Quran becuase of what,it contains.

And that is why I strongly have urges of making Dua for reversal of time. Because, I cannot take this life anymore. And because of the fact that I was badly humiliated in grade 7, now I'm unable to perform ritual prayers due to the fear that I'll be mocked badly again or even worse can happen, and now this thing has been imprinted in my mind for whole life I think.

And that is why I really want reversal of time, because I want a new life in which I'm accepted by everyone as I am without judging me abd without confusing me with ISIS or bad Arabs. And I want new divine laws and legislations, just so that others will stop mocking it because of what is written in it.

So, how can I deal with strong urges and with obsession of making Dua for reversal of time?