Not passing tests

[SeekingParadise]

Assalamu alaikum,

I'm new to this forum, so I apologize in advance for any mistakes.

My question is about not passing the trials Allah has afflicted you with. I know you have to be patient, but sometimes I'm not strong enough to react the right way. I get angry at the situation, at myself and even at Allah. Of course I regret it afterwards and then I just suffer in silence till the pain ends. Sometimes I even skip prayers because the depression has a debilitating effect on me. It's like I'm a walking dead person then or a flower that's withering away.
Allah always grants me relieve after my trials but it won't take long till something happens again. Like can I catch a break please? I have been through so much pain in my life and it just won't stop. I'm sick of this endless cyle. Allah said that the more you believe, the more he tests you. I know it's dumb but sometimes I think maybe I should have weaker iman if it means I will suffer less.

I want to know if all the pain is for nothing, if you don't pass Allah's tests by not having sabr.

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Sorry I should have posted this to the "Advice & Support" thread!

[IslamLife00]

wa 'alaykumassalaam

Brother, please be patient and steadfast in the deen. If it's getting harder for you to bear, keep making dua asking Allah to grant you patience and strength to endure hardships. InshaaAllah it will be means to expiate your sins or you will gain what is good. And Allah is the Most Knowing what is good for you, even though you may not like it.

'A'isha reported:

I heard Allah's Messenger (ﷺ) as saying: There is nothing (in the form of trouble) that comes to a believer even if it is the pricking of a thorn that there is decreed for him by Allah good or his sins are obliterated. (Sahih Muslim)


Also please guard your salah. We are created to worship Allah. May Allah make it easy for you.

On the authority of Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) from the Prophet (ﷺ), who said:
Allah (mighty and sublime be He) says: The first of his actions for which a servant of Allah will be held accountable on the Day of Resurrection will be his prayers. If they are in order, then he will have prospered and succeeded: and if they are wanting, then he will have failed and lost. If there is something defective in his obligatory prayers, the Lord (glorified and exalted be He) will say: See if My servant has any supererogatory prayers with which may be completed that which was defective in his obligatory prayers. Then the rest of his actions will be judged in like fashion. It was related by at-Tirmidhi (also by Abu Dawud, an-Nasa'i, Ibn Majah and Ahmad).