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John1121
Assalamu alaikum,
It has been slightly over 2 years that I have started taking the deen seriously, praying 5 times a day with sunnah prayer, reading Qur'an and tafsir etc. Since then I have been haunted by a pack of jinns. I know jinn stories are rather too common in our society but mine has a different twist. 1) It is immune to ruqya, 2) While jinns show up in others while they are deviated from the right path and upon returning to the correct path they disappear, mine have been getting strong as I have held strong to the Qur'an and sunnah. 3) While in others the jinn merely confuse them with physicial or mental illness mine seems to only be keen on torturing me through display of more complicated and intricated magic that has taken my life into a plunge where I cannot work, and losing my health rapidly (ie fulfilling shaitan's ultimate goal to make life miserable in this life and for the hereafter).
So I know its a pack of jinn because there is always one inside me that is magnifying my emotions of fear+ hatred towards an external action by another person and then there is all around me affected by 'magic' where the jin gives them wasawa to say or do something that it knows from its companion inside me that it is something I hate/fear. And then there is the auditory hallucinations of car horns, other sounds that annoy specially given the magnitude its amplified to by the jinn inside. And this is not just limited to 2 people. Sometimes I will be on a highway and the entire row of cars will snow down to a snail pace near a building or an exit that the jinn wants me to take. How does the jinn communicate you may ask? It produces a stimulus that I know comes from it (eg horn, physicial tap on shoulder/vibrations/feeling of getting hot quickly) just when it wants to get my attention.
Then there are the other physical tortures it carries out through my surroundings. Basically it just surprises me with new tricks everyday so I cannot learn how it operates and all my day is used up to avoid it. However, I cannot avoid it because the one inside me will simply magnify the terrors within. I have tried contacting various religious scholars however they have all backed out and Im guessing they have no clue. This jinn has performed so much magic that I had been forced to look into religious books to find an answer why is my jinn different than others. Ive finished Ibne Kathir on the parts relating to shaytan and jinn, various translations of Qur'an, hadiths, seraah of RasulAllah (sallAllallah alay his salam), his favorite companions eg Khulafa Rashidun, some of the ashara Mubasher, and even the history of previous generations eg the story behind Surah Fiil. However, since I am not a Qur'anic scholar I do not understand all the meaning of Surah's completely (that is beyond the first meaning) eg Kaaf, Qaf, Humazaah, Mudathir/Muzammil, Naas, Ikhlas, and probably some of Falaaq too (eg why is the blower of knot a female magician and not male in tafsir). Can anyone advice me on how to get rid of this disease? Ive constantly consuming sunnah food such as dates, honey etc as well as zam zam water. There is no haraam income in my household.
Any help is appreciated, thank you my brothers and sisters in Islam
yeah that sounds bad, basically..
something you do, personally.. old habits, new habits.. is letting "jinn" into you.
thats the hardest thing to admit, and sometimes the compulsion to do these things is so engrained into us that its hard to even think it bad or to stop.
and the worst thing is that even if you do correct yourself, the feeling of loss of freedom or intrusion by others.. real or imaginary.. may not go away.
simply because a seen and unseen world will always exist.
but your at a point where what you seek is a clear concience and where you want to be guided is where you bloomin put into your sat nav!
and the only way is to rectify oneself.
its an amazing world lol, to truly appreciate it means removing fear or anger.. at a people who have no idea what they do.
..a lot of strong characters out there.. that understand the language they speak and the system they live in.
..or not.
you would be suprised to realise they are all human also.. honestly sometimes how we percieve ourselves and how the world percieves us are two different things..
anyway, the point is
that to achieve clarity of mind and thought.
if that varies with the things we do or the people we are with, then its something to learn from.
but it can get to a point where you start hating people.. simply because of the way they turn up in your life or how things unfold.
...dont.
hate yourself.
not dont hate yourself, do hate yourself but admit your own faults and start making a change.
then one day, conversation and topic will not be so painful.. maybe even irrelevant.
..or you could try getting beat up and see who falls out of the other side..when the door closes on em.
although you would have to be an expert.
im kidding,
steadfastness, its part of the religion.
Allah swt is the sustainer, the protector, the provider.. the creator.
It's ironic because in the absence of these intrusions you may think it harder for that to be seen and understood..
But Allah swt is just, so don't fear the attack..
Every battle is won and lost long before the battlefield is reached.
I'm sorry I cant be more clearer but you have to understand what you are asking about lol.
But you have to want to turn it around more than you want to give up.. that's the thing about growing up.
More responsibility.
Can you imagine we get so caught up in who we are and what we are doing, that non of it feels unnatural..
And that is normality?
Alhamdullillah.
But turning your back on the world wont do anyone any good either.
We can go on to character and imposing yourself on the world but you cant fake it..
So this is what it's like trying to live with yourself.
...its a start.