JazaakAllahu khair to your dua. (Ameen)
Follow this website guidelines for gaining a full recovery :
Read this site for information regarding a Muslim child's rights:
(The top parts there are really for those at younger ages, the below bits could be more relevant)
Your sister ought to join Islamic classes, that would help her out in everything.
The problem as I see it between you and her/siblings goes back to the relationship your mother has with you and the example set. The relationship between your mom and self seems derived from the inability of your mother to deal effectively with your father. In which case, she needs external assistance, not abusing her kids, but i suppose it's unintentional as a mother's love for her kids is really something so great naturally. Yet, still this has affected you very badly. And, so you should (when able to do so) bond with your mother in a friendly, caring and understanding way. And then at some point explain the unfairness of the expectations and the effect her actions are having on/ between you and your sibling/s.
A parent ought to be fair between their children. But, here I'm so really sorry for your mom too. Her support needs to be extended; her family, friends, leaders in the community, social workers/counsellors etc.
I wrote something on mediation and
there is a link there to follow if your mom can get some help.
As for you, mental fatigue and health issues, is making you see things incorrectly.
(1)
"Allah isn't happy and still angry"- Yet He gave you shelter at the massjid, He guided you to an Islamic forum (with righteous people), He made me come back here to assist, when had already made up my mind to stay away for some time!......Really, does He not love you?
(2) Your abuser walked away freely? Yeah, maybe in this world
only in the temporary time that this person has here. Or, maybe your abuser would be sorted out on a timely basis. For his sake I hope it's in this world. Because in hell, have heard the lightest punishment is no easy matter:
"The person who will receive the least punishment among the people of Hell on the Day Resurrection will be a man, a smoldering ember will be placed under the arch of his foot. His brains will boil because of it." - Sahih Al Bukhari
(3)
"Yet despite this Allah will not allow me to get married or have a family. It's as if my family want me to never get married."
- This isn't the same thing at all! And if your family is so against marriage, ask yourself if it's at this time because of your situation or if they really are this way........
If, it is because they want you to finish your studies then it's not entirely wrong, however that would be difficult when being under emotional abuse. However, if they are absolutely cruel, then as a male, who is independent you can still be married. They can't stop you but if you really fear this, stop talking marriage with them and turn to those people in massjid who can help otherwise.
It's okay to express your emotions and frustrations but at the end of the day you really have to do some internal analysis and ask yourself if you are indeed truly ready to be married. Because, honestly, i'm a bit scared that someone takes advantage of your vulnerability (due to what you have been through, learning to be assertive and independent can help). At the same time, due to your needs, I'd hope for the perfect person in your life who is amazingly wonderful, supportive and kind.
But neither of us know what can happen, so we have to turn to Allah and ask Him to help us; be patient and show gratitude (thank Him for all His blessings and favors). Think well of Him and don't blame the harms of others on your creator....if you want to be blaming then look around you and the world we live in; societies are falling apart by those in authority who are failing to deliver justice)
Think best of Allah in all situations,.....
Do you really love Allah? If you do then following the sunnah both outwardly and internally is important. Do you know what this is about.....
Almighty Allah said (what means): “Say (O Muhammad): “if you (really) love Allah then follow me (i.e. accept Islamic monotheism, follow the Quran and Sunnah), Allah will love you and forgive you your sins. And Allah is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.” [3:31].
Whenever you get married, don't allow your spouse- wife to be your everything; put Allah first, keep your friends, stay involved in the massjid and also keep a respectable and kind relationship with your family members.
Life isn't about having everything you wanted it is having happiness and peace irregardless of everything you wanted, because those things are priceless..anything you want from this world (halal and good) can be had in the akhirah, immeasurable in worth and forever/everlasting. However, good can be had here too, be patient and STRIVE for it. To bring blessings in your life:
Daily:
(1) Recite a portion the Quran regularly (1 letter equals 10 blessings)
(2) Recite daroods (10 blessings for each time)
(3) Seek forgiveness often and thank Allah often for another day to do good.
(4) Be helpful to someone in need - start with your parents
(5) Teach Islam to your family members - keep trying, don't give up.
(6) Stay away from sins and encourage others to do the same.
(7) Please listen to Surah Yasin often.
Lastly, these are how the companions(the best of the righteous) loved Allah:
Bilal r.a would be physically tortured on burning sand chained but kept repeating "There is none to be worshiped but Allah"
Hanzalah r.a after his first night with his wife, went out to Jihad and died in the battlefield.
They were both given signs of being accepted in Jannah. Maybe you can find more stories on this forum/elsewhere.
If, I have said anything wrong others may correct me.
JazaakAllahu khairan.
wassalaam.