My past sins...

[Studentofdeed]

Before I turned 15...I wasnt the best Muslim as I had the most limited knowledge ever. I was very immature and impulsive. And I did alot of sins. Every now and then I would misbehave and be greedy. I feel guilty about it and wonder if Allah hated me back then and perhaps all the bad things that are happening are punishment for my young life. I sa ignorant and did not know alot about Islam. I didnt bully or oppress anyone and if I ever did take people property it wasnt that much of value. But ever since I stopped hanging around bad people and started helping people and learning about Islam I wanted help others. I try to give sadaqah as much as I can and whenever I can to please Allah and on behalf of all those I wronged. I just hope it is enough and I'm worried if all the bad things are because of my teenage mistakes...does Allah hate sinful young people that are ignorant and do not know about Islam much? Please give me more info and analysis on my case...jazakallah khayran.

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Also part of the reason why I wasnt attracted to Islam when I was young was my father and family...dont get me wrong...I love my family but they have their faults. My father would use religion whenever it suited him and as a way to emotional and religiously blackmail me. It is now that I learned that he wasnt doing alot of correct things. But that is why I was driven away from Islam and not attracted to it

[keiv]

Why do you keep insisting on stating that Allah hated/s you despite the advice that's been given to you before about that?

[Studentofdeed]

I honestly do not know and want to seek advise regarding my past.

[Aaima zahid]

I honestly do not know and want to seek advise regarding my past.

Asslamoalikum,
Brother I don’t know what’s your age as you are mentioning about teenage faults ... i want to tell you that as a teenager i was also ignorant but now Alhumdulillah i am not like that i moved on I learned about islam i am practicing it as much as i can ... so brother if You got that Alarm that is telling you to come towards islam I congratulate you InshAllah Allah will bless you with a lot of His blessings. Just ask for His forgiveness and thank Him for giving you the light of good path.
Indeed He is merciful and and He loves the one who repent.
May Allah helps you.
And one more thing stop worrying about your past as your past will not define you but your present.

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[HisServant]

The sister has given valuable advice. Alhamdulilah.

1. Know that Allah is always near with you. "And indeed We have created man, and We know whatever thoughts his inner self develops, and We are closer to him than (his) jugular vein.” (Quran 50:16)


2. There isn't anyone who will not be tested. The most righteous, including the prophets were tested.

Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, "We believe", and that they will not be tested? (Surah Al-‘Ankabut, 2)
Be sure we shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere, (Surah Al-Baqara, 155)


3. The Muslim Youth Helpline: https://www.myh.org.uk/

Ponder upon the signs of His Creation; the sun, the moon, the stars, oceans, mountains, birds in the sky.... Also, do things which will cause enjoyment. There isn't anything wrong seeking happiness in this world (good and halal) . Audible.com is a good website for discovering interesting and educational books that you can listen. Also, especially when in doubt about Allah's love or mercy, the Quran is the best book to seek guidance and reassurance, reading His words will definitely be uplifting.

[Ahmed.]

Brother I think you are allowing depression to get the better of you. I have explained to you a few times before to just forget about the past as that's gone and forgiven InshAllah so it doesn't matter what Allah thought about you then and you agreed each time that that's the best way to deal with it

But here you are again with the same thoughts that are really nothing but waswas

Look to the future bro and don't mull over the past!

If you manage to do that, problem solved! :)