I'm not certain anyone here can answer your question and since no one responded as yet, if you'll like to ask a scholar online:
Also, preferably in your area an Imam who knows you would be best.
I have often been warned not to share bad dreams which can sometimes be confusing with true dreams or even dreams from the self. So, I do understand your situation. IN all instances, the safest aim would be to constantly strive to progressively improve our Imaan/faith and practice.
May Allah swt guide you correctly. Ameen.
- - - Updated - - -
"We ask Allaah to protect usand you from all bad and evil things and to divert from us and from you theplots of the devils among mankind and the jinn, for He is the best ofprotectors and the Most merciful of those who show mercy.
With regard to what the sleeper sees in his sleep, it falls into threecategories: good dreams which come from Allaah; bad dreams which come fromthe shaytaan; and what a person is thinking about.
Good dreams are those inwhich the sleeper sees good things; they come from Allaah. They may be meantas good news, or warning against evil, or helping and guiding. It is Sunnahto praise Allaah for them and to tell one’s loved ones, but not others,about them.
Bad dreams are those inwhich the sleeper sees bad things; they come from the shaytaan. It is Sunnahto seek refuge with Allaah from them and to spit to the left three times,and not to talk about them, but if a person does that it will not harm him.It is also mustahabb to turn onto one’s other side, and to pray tworak’ahs.
It may be that what onesees is not a dream of either of these two types, rather it stems from whatone is thinking about. This is called confused dreams and it stems fromevents and fears stored in the memory and subconscious, which are replayedduring sleep. For example, a man who works in a certain profession andspends all day working in that field, and before he goes to sleep he thinksabout it, so he may see things having to do with it in his dream; or one whothinks about someone whom he loves and sees things that have to do with thatperson. There is no interpretation for these things.
It was narrated from AbuHurayrah that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him)said: “Towards the end of time, hardly any dream of a Muslim will be false.The ones who have the truest dreams will be those who are truest in speech.The dream of a Muslim is one of the forty-five parts of Prophethood. Dreamsare of three types: a good dream which is glad tidings from Allaah, a dreamfrom the Shaytaan which causes distress, and a dream that comes from what aman is thinking of to himself…”