Wa 'alaykumussalaam
Akhi, Alhamdulillah you are being guided to be a good muslim.
We are created to worship Allah, regardless things go the way we want or not.
And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me. (Adh-Dhariyat 56)
What we want is not necessarily good for us and Allah Most Knowing what is good for us.
But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not. (Al Baqarah 216)
This dunya is temporary existence, it's a place where we are tested, so it's better to focus on passing the test so that we return to His Mercy instead of His wrath.
[He] who created death and life to test you [as to] which of you is best in deed - and He is the Exalted in Might, the Forgiving (Al Mulk 2)
Indeed, We have made that which is on the earth adornment for it that We may test them [as to] which of them is best in deed. And indeed, We will make that which is upon it [into] a barren ground. (Al Kahf 7-8)
(Hell) almost bursts with rage. Every time a company is thrown into it, its keepers ask them, "Did there not come to you a warner?"
They will say," Yes, a warner had come to us, but we denied and said, ' Allah has not sent down anything. You are not but in great error.'
"And they will say, "If only we had been listening or reasoning, we would not be among the companions of the Blaze." (Al Mulk 8-10)
It was narrated that Sahl bin Sa’d said:“We were with the Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) in Dhul-Hulaifah, when we saw a dead sheep lifting its leg (because of bloating).
He said: ‘Don’t you think this is worthless to its owner? By the One in Whose hand is my soul, this world is more worthless to Allah than this (dead sheep) is to its owner.
If this world was worth the wing of a mosquito to Allah, the disbeliever would not have a drop to drink from it.’” (Sunan Ibn Majah)
There are many good videos online on how to offer salat. When I first reverted, I went with this video
https://iera.org/new-muslim/learning-the-prayer/as well as learning from the local masjid