Kashafnoor
11-09-2020, 05:54 PM
Salam!
I have always been an introvert, keeping to myself and not talking much with anyone, but the feeling of loneliness and pain was always there. In my friends, I have never been able to fit in, and it makes my heart hurt every time I ma hang out with them and am unable to speak.
But then I finally found a place, when my parents opened an orphanage three years ago. At first, even there I didn't know how to act around kids or be with them, but then I learnt and finally was happy, with all the love that I was getting by the kids. It went to a point that just to be loved by the kids and to give them more time, I try to go there whenever I have time, about three days a week. And I spend the whole Friday with them, but now, I feel like the kids don't even like me, no matter how much I try, buying them things, giving the everything they want, it feels like they don't like me for me, but for the things that I give them.
I can relate this to Islam, because I feel like the way we treat Allah, is the way we are treated by the people. Allah has given me everything Alhamdullilah, showered me with blessings, a nice paying job, top university in the whole country, best grades (without studying), but what have I given him in return? Nothing, no prayers, no Quran, and that exactly how people treat me. I give them everything, but get nothing in return.
Please guide me, tell me where to start to become a better Muslim, tell me how to take this anxiety of my shoulders.
ReplyKashafnoor
11-10-2020, 06:16 AM
Thank you so much! I will start doing this all from now InshaAllah.
ReplyIslami.Mu'mina
11-10-2020, 04:07 PM
You have to start now. Alhamdulilah you have come to a good realization. Go back to praying and Quran. Next time you pray though, try to deeply connect, for that will motivate you and let you see the true light. People start failing in deen when they cannot connect in prayer anymore.. I keep falling and I'm doing horrible because I am failing to find khushu in prayer.
You just gotta keep trying. Start off with that and memorizing the quran but also reading the verses and understanding the beautiful meaning. Watch more lectures.
The biggest advice I can give you is to BE serious about it. Right after that, you will have your own journey and self discovery. You will know what steps to take as long as you keep trying and keep asking Allah for guidance
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Kashafnoor
11-10-2020, 04:22 PM
Thank you so much! I will try doing that, it really helped. May Allah reward you! Ameen
Replyabdurrahman23
11-14-2020, 08:05 AM
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Kashafnoor
Salam!
I have always been an introvert, keeping to myself and not talking much with anyone, but the feeling of loneliness and pain was always there. In my friends, I have never been able to fit in, and it makes my heart hurt every time I ma hang out with them and am unable to speak.
But then I finally found a place, when my parents opened an orphanage three years ago. At first, even there I didn't know how to act around kids or be with them, but then I learnt and finally was happy, with all the love that I was getting by the kids. It went to a point that just to be loved by the kids and to give them more time, I try to go there whenever I have time, about three days a week. And I spend the whole Friday with them, but now, I feel like the kids don't even like me, no matter how much I try, buying them things, giving the everything they want, it feels like they don't like me for me, but for the things that I give them.
I can relate this to Islam, because I feel like the way we treat Allah, is the way we are treated by the people. Allah has given me everything Alhamdullilah, showered me with blessings, a nice paying job, top university in the whole country, best grades (without studying), but what have I given him in return? Nothing, no prayers, no Quran, and that exactly how people treat me. I give them everything, but get nothing in return.
Please guide me, tell me where to start to become a better Muslim, tell me how to take this anxiety of my shoulders.
If you live in a non Muslim country than this is not just a feeling. You are not the only one who is going through such things. Millions of Muslims are being abused in the west. Allah tells us in the Qur'an.
Hatred has already appeared from their mouths, but what their hearts conceal is worse
―Quran 3:118
ReplyStudentofdeed
11-14-2020, 08:11 AM
Some of us are abused by our own Muslims. That is far worse.
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