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Qweer
Did u went through therapy? Like to a psychiatrist?
Psychiatrist? Let's say this much.... I think it's safe to say that everyone has their baggage and everyone has tried to get help in one way or another. So to answer you truthfully, I have seen a psychiatrist at one point in my life many, many years ago. However, due to my age at the time (I was six), it could only be classified as a "therapy" for the officials and the case it involved. But it wasn't what it was "supposed " to be.
My therapy is in islam. My medicine is the quran and my doctor is allah. I am an extremely sensitive person by nature and I have always had a passion for psychology. So between that and a good portion of common sense to counter my emotional side, I am grateful to be blessed with this for my self. It sounds kind of far out there but it's the truth.
Everyone has something going down. We have all been at what we felt was rock bottom. No denying that. And by the mercy and grace of our Lord and رب, we are still standing. You are too!
Okay, no doubt, those waswas can drive a person mad. The constant fear, doubt and second guessing every move we make... its exhausting and is just no peaceful way to live.
Peace is not around us in life. It's inside. But isn't Islam peace as well?
You fear Allah, facts. Yet how much do you actually trust Allah? How much do you really rely on him? Are you really aware that there is nothing he cannot do for you? Have you completely grasped the fact that he is in control of everything? We were given free will but ultimate control is not with us. It's Allah's plan, not ours.
Yes, you're tested with this OCD. But what are you learning from it? You are suffering, 100, but are you learning too?
I hope you don't misunderstand my tone for being condescending. These are questions I personally asked myself and I continue to ask myself when I start to slip. Maybe they can help you too.
Reading the Quran was the best decision I ever made. I just picked it up one day and started reading. And i read it over and over again.
Islam was not made difficult. Islam is not oppressive, aggressive, or anything else like that. We people just make things more complicated than they are.
When you are getting those waswas again, before you ask yourself if this is believed to be kufr or shirk or whatever, try asking what you yourself believe and ask Allah to protect you. Ask him to guide you and to help you learn what you need to learn. He will. He is always there and never does he not listen or turn us away.
I pray for you to heal and that Allah will help you to silence the voices in your mind. I pray Allah can open your heart wide to the light that islam is and I pray you can find comfort in it; not just fear. We're here for you but Allah is there first