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but i can't when im crying most of the time about doing this.
ma shaa Allah.Feeling sad and realising how grave your sins are,that is one of the characteristics of the believers,and a sing that your heart is not dead.If only i could cry about my sins the way you do.May Allah increase your faith and make you among the best muslim girls,Ameen.
I completely understand what you are going though.Pornography especially its like throwing rockets on your eman and heart.It destroys them completely,and it gives you brain fog,lower self confidence,lower energy levels,prolonged anxiety and stress etc and it drags you more and more into that filth and the worst thing about it is that it messes up with your dopamine levels so much,that the more hardcore porn you watch the more happy you feel at the moment and the worst are the side effects.You will want to watch porn so much that you would be willing to leave everything just so you can watch porn.
But i have good news for you.It can all be reserved,your eman can be back and the damage porn has made on your brain and your body can be reserved,but it will take some time and it all depends on you.
While my advise ofc it would be to stop watching it and stop masturbating,as everybodies advise.I know this is extremely hard,especially if you are used to it everyday.People who were never into this dont understand how hard it is.Porn addiction is the same as heroin addiction.
If you cant stop everything immediately,then stop watching porn first.After the desires are gone you dont feel the need to watch it,you know that already.So first of all try to resist it as much as you can,the first 3 days after masturbating are the worst because the brain and the body crave that dopamine so much and this is when the desires are also the highest.So please try to resist at least 3 days and then it will get easier.
In the mean time fast,you should fast everyday to make it easier for you to go through this.If others ask why you are fasting then say you want to be more religious and get your eman back,you wouldnt be lying as thats what you want to do actually.
While fasting everyday you should also pray tahajjud everyday.It will change your heart,and if you cant pray the other prayers then force yourself to at least pray 1 salah a day.
And if you sometimes still cant resist and it becomes unbareable then go through it without watching porn and start again with fasting and praying tahajjud,but dont let this be an everyday thing.Never watch porn again never or you will never break free from this,but if you do what i advised you,you will slowly get your eman back everyday more and from praying 1 salah you will pray 2 and 3 and in shaa Allah all.In a few months doing this you will see really big changes.
Marriage is also the best solution,but marriage would save one from masturbation not from pornography.So the first thing to do is stop watching pornography no matter what.