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Labayk
It is difficult for us to give a good solid answer for issues like these simply because we don't know your individual circumstances. The best that we could do is give general advice and hope that this would be of use. Allah tells us in the Quran that He has not created men and jinn except to worship Him. This, as I'm sure you know well, is our purpose in life. For those (not you) who do not worship Allah alone, then their life is devoid of purpose and meaning and they live a robotic or animal-like existence wandering aimlessly around stumbling through life with no direction. A Muslim can experience this same sense of meaninglessness as well but to a much lesser degree if they are neglecting a certain obligation/s or are committing sins as these things are not what we were created for. This is where things get a little fuzzy for us as we don't know well your condition but try to look for any obligations that you might be overlooking. How is your relationship with individual family members? Are all of you family ties firm and legit? Or are relations between you estranged? I don't know your marital status, but are you treating your husband well? Are you partaking in any Dawah-type activities of conveying knowledge? I always feel a sense of meaninglessness if I don't do something for the Deen. It doesn't have to be a grand blog or anything. The Prophet (salalahu 'alaihi wa salaam) told us to convey this message even if it is one ayah. How are you spending your "free-time"? Are you wasting it on FaceBook? Or doing something more useful? Reading up on our Aqeedah, studying/practicing Arabic, diving into the Tafsir of al-Quran al-Kareem, and studying the history of Islam, and making Dua specifically for the weak and oppressed amongst the Muslims are all other obligations that reconnect us with our purpose in life and make life less cold and robotic.
Also included in this is issues of the heart: Are you becoming impatient a little too easily? In which situations? Time to practice more Sabr. Do you worry too much? About what issues? Time to practice more Tawwakul and say "HasbunAllah wa Na'ma Wakeel" when those issues come to your mind. Are you feeling hopeless and despairing? Time to remember Allah's Great Mercy and recall how He delivers His servants from all kinds of troubles even after some time and to make Dua for what it is you need and hope for.
Again, much of this is speculation on my part. It could be something completely different that you need to do or not do or a combination of things. It might not be clear or apparent what you need to change right away which will require some Sabr. With that I would suggest making Dua' but here I mean in a specific way: Ask Allah to forgive your sins that you do knowingly and unknowingly. Ask Him to show you the error in your ways and what you need to do better. "O changer of hearts, make my heart firm upon your deen." Again be patient with this.
Again, it is difficult for us to get exact not knowing your situation, but I hope these words were of some benefit inshAllah.
"O you who have believed, fear Allah and seek the means [of nearness] to Him and strive in His cause that you may succeed." (al-Maidah: 35)
What a sign from Allah, Subhanallah! That's my name, Quran's surah...
Btw, I spent a lot of time figuring what's wrong with me and in the end I realized it's my superselfcriticizing attitude. If I don't make something, like a nafl or I don't recite Quran exact amount of time I planned to, I hate myself. I have no Dunya problems, I only have these. it's like - Allah has given me everything, why can't I give up everything for Him, including halal things.
Probably I'm over pressuring myself and Islam is very simple.
As for my Tawakkul - I have it more than I need. I have posted somewhere a thread about it that I have too much of Tawakkul. Some find it good, but I think it's too much. For example, I don't care at all if something bad happens in Dunya to me, I just rely on Allah. I know it sounds good, but trust me it's not. I don't worry about anything except for my deen practicing and this heart/soul problem.
I'm impatient with myself, only...