Wa alaykum Salam wa rahmatuAllahi wa barakaatahu.
Jazaka Allahu khair for applying the Sunnah with your salam. Despite that you do not want us to think that you have a strong faith then applying the Sunnah especially nowadays is a great deed and a sign of faith.
I should also start this message with:
Bismi Allahi wa salatu wa salam alaa nabiiyuna Muhammed wa alaa alihi wa ashabihi ajmaeen.
Which does not mean that I am a sheikh or something but it is also Sunnah and the more we apply the better for ourselves because it is all blessing, protection, guidance etc.
Concerning what you say about music and maybe other HARAAM things then this is really bad and probably a lack of knowledge or weakness of the nafs towards things which one gets attached to. No doubt music is HARAAM and unfortunately just writing about it in your message suggests that you may accept music or not be too strict. This is how I read it but I may be wrong. The good thing is that you are anonymous but that does not mean we should act less responsibly on the internet. So I would delete that about the music as it is such a widespread evil that millions of Muslims accept as normal and some even see as something positive.
Concerning what you say about being tested then it is a sure sign of faith and we are all tested in different ways. Whatever comes to pass then we should always ask ALLAH SWT for help and then maybe ask a scholar or the like for help and advice. Internet works both ways, that is, it may help but it may certainly also harm you. If you can contact a scholar then that is better. It is easy nowadays to find contact details on different websites and then call the sheikh by phone. For really serious personal questions then you can also look for a really good and pious person. For scholarly questions then Saudi Arabia or those who adhere to the minhaj (methodology) of the salaf-us-saleh (pious predecessors). Europe or USA do not have any scholars although some may call themselves as such.
If you are in USA then I know Musa Richardson. His website is bakkah.net. in Britain you have salaf.com
Below a link where you can ask but I am not sure about their minhaj. One must always be careful from where one takes one's Deen.
https://studentsofknowledge.org/contact/