In the Name of Allâh and His Prophet Muhammad, may Allâh shower him with blessing and peace.
What you mention about family reminds me of my own conversion to Islam. So I thank you for your message because it made me write down my story although not all the details.
I hope that Allâh will make it easy for you. I also posted two video links you may like.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=SPpJpmhsPK4
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QM0PBOs_sFk
Coincidentally today is the 24th of December and I reverted to Islam just around New Year 2006. At this point in my life I had decided to make the choice of embracing and submitting to Islam however I felt a great challenge close to Christmas as I would have to tell my parents that I would not participate this time. I remember how this was an emotional struggle but I knew and felt this had to be done in order for me to come closer to my goal of embracing Islam. New Years was an easy thing to avoid as it did not involve my family except a phone call whereas Christmas was a moment of joy, love and happiness between us. These days around New Year - and after I had told my parents not coming for Christmas - were spent in deep contemplation and completely on my own. I knew how to make the testimony and purification from a book and my final words before I proceded towards doing it was: "If this is the Truth and I only want the Truth then I put my trust in You, Allâh The Creator of everything."
Prior to this I had reached a point in my life where I concluded that there was nothing more for me to search about. I had been searching for the truth for many years and felt that I was in a dead end. I had a bible in my home but had never opened it. This was approximately one year before I reverted. I read the chapter about Jonah because my name is Jonas and noticed how God is All Powerful and guides people. But Christianity had failed the test of being an upright religion because of the many contradictions in worship, like drinking wine, playing music, even in the Church. Judaism was totally out of the question because Jews have such a bad reputation of being traitors and other really bad traits. This was crystal clear to me and for some reason I had not read much about Islam. But one day I decided to go to the mosque and knew that I must enter the place of prayer. Somebody on my way tried to stop me but when I stated that I was looking for the truth I was granted permission to enter.
Standing inside the house of Allâh I did not know what to do but felt struck with awe and complete calmness. Somebody asked me if I wanted to pray with him which I did. When it was over I felt really great and full of energy. I left the masjid with this feeling.
A few months later I met a Muslim girl who inspired me to purchase a translation of the meanings of the Qur'an. I was reading the verse about the Hur Al Ain in Paradise and fell asleep. In my sleep I had a dream where I was in the most beautiful place. When I woke up I felt really great. I began to read about Islam and found everything logic and natural. The Muslim girl was very insisting that I should convert which pushed me to take the steps described in the beginning of this message. And I knew intuitively that I had to make a huge choice between the life I had and a completely new life. I knew a man who was kind of a mentor for me because I was in an organization which used the mentor-disciple relation. He was very knowledgeable and when I told him my interest to convert to Islam he said: "if you convert then there is no return". It sounded like a warning although he was supposed to be a friend. But coming from him I then realized that Islam must be the truth because when one accepts the truth then no one with a sane mind would wish to return.
There are many other things which led me to Islam and I will in sha Allah write it down in order to get the reward of spreading the truth in sha Allah.
The dream I had was actually the masjid al Haram in Makkah as I discovered about 2 years later when I went for Hajj. It was exactly as in the dream so please read the Qur'an. It is full of blessings.