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iammuslim98
Aoa. May Allah grant you shifa and a speedy recovery. It is okay. this is a test nothing more. We all go through tests, some different from the others. As you rest during your illness keep making dua..and keep asking Allah for forgiveness.. that is the best dua.
You know, I wanted to use covid for dua, and in the end I did, but lying in bed and just saying words. I know it's a test... I figured that my test with me wanting to do something big and doesn't work could be Judgment Day asset, as in a proof to others or witnessing for others about wanting to spend time with Allah, and on the other hand so many Muslims have no obstacles to spend as much as possible time with Allah. Also, I believe He wanted to see if I'm going to give up and I didn't.
Eventually, Allah has given me the time during covid, when fever and pain got lifted and I'm so grateful for that and happy. I wish it'll always be this way.
Also, I figured that if we use every single free time moment for Allah, He'll open the time we want to spend with Him for us. And also, trying get up from bed during the night for salatul layl also helps a lot. At the same time, He'll give us barakah in time for other worldly stuff.
Good that I have learned something through this journey. Alhamdulillah, the idea that Allah doesn't want me was very short and I understood it was waswasa...