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It is not that easy for OP, because this is mess/sihr like and semipsychiatric.
@OP
You have probably sihr with mess from a sahir man or jinn.
It is common to go to a psychiatrist in the west, especially with muslim background if possible, trained in islamic psychology too.
Please get to the doctor. He can, if well trained help inshaAllah.
I can recommend in addition duas from dua books Hisn al Muslim, Ad Dua Divine help Momin ka hathyaar in English, reading surah Yasin and Manzil after every salat, a lot of dua, {salawat ibrahimi, estegfar, shukrulillah, tasbeeh-like subhanallahi walhamdulillahi wa la ilaha illallahu wallahu akbar wa la hawla wa la quwwata illa billahil aliyyil adheem, la ilaha illallahu wahdahu la sharika lahu lahulm mulku wa lahul hamdu wa huwa ala kulli shayin qadeer}-everything (isolated) x100 at least mornings and evenings. Better 300x and with time build up to 1000x or more.
The thoughts shall go in some days of the regimen inshaAllah.
Recommend thise to others (especially family, masjid, neighbors, fruends) and it will add to yours deeds and protections inshaAllah.
Drink 200 mL organic 100% pomegranate juice daily. Take nigella sativa oil, nuts, olive oil. Drink at least 2x300 mLmilk daily. Eat 7 ajwa dates every morning and evenings. Eat figs, olives, apricots, plums.
Give a lot of sadaqa. Nowdays there is a campain for sponsoring a whole family for Ramadat at Muslimhands, only 60£. The more the better of course.
Be regular at the gym.
visit hijama centres if in UK.
Go to masjid for namaz.
You take regularly ghusl and wuddu (also before sleep).
recite duas and surahs before sleep (kafirun, amanarasulu, last 3 quls (blowing, wiping), ayat kursi and duas).
You'll start inshaAllah to experience a lot of barakah, noor,help, security, blessings and many other benefits, inshaAllah.