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Fti
There are many things for eg i have to clean myself constantly to feel "right" i have to recite same thing over and over so that it feels ok even when i start wudu i can't even recite Bismillah with ease as i have to repeat it over and over just to get feeling of "right"
Yes those are very common traits in those who suffer from waswasa/OCD in worship. Please refer to the following thread which is dedicated to helping those suffering from waswasa/OCD in worship. It contains many helpful articles, resources, help and advices to enable you to overcome your issues insha'Allah:
How to overcome Waswasa/OCD in Worship:
How to Overcome Waswasa/OCD in Worship
Please go through the entire thread carefully and make notes and implement all the advices and you will definitely find many things in the thread that will help enable you to overcome your issues insha'Allah.
Also ask of Allah profusely during these blessed days and nights to help you overcome your issues and make the utmost effort with the help, advices and resources provided throughout the thread. Then put your faith, reliance, trust and faith in Allah and never lose hope nor give up as that's what our enemy shaythan wants.
May Allah make it easy for you and enable you to overcome your issues. Ameen.