:wasalam:
:bism:
Dear regretful sister,
In addition to the above advices,
You should consult also a muslim psychiatrist.
Do not despair or lose hope in the forgiveness and mercy of Allah.
https://quran.com/39/53?translations=19,20,22
You repented now. It is needed that you stay away in the future out of the way of such sins and not come near zinna (lesser or greater).
In such relationships people start to do the greatest zinna and it counts and counts as one of the greatest sins to our souls.
Please do not disclose the sin to your parents.
It is most important you do not repeat such sins, especially during Ramadan.
It is a more complicated situation nowdays with the phones, with the cameras, on public places with boyfriends, especially different ethnicity, religion etc. They can ruin you life and life of your family.
But, instead thinking negatively, from now on focus on beeing more productive in both deen and dunya, healthy, altruistic (helping others), voulounteer (you will feel a lot better), enroll into fitness, studies online, courses, increase daily salawat (like ibrahimi from namaz/salat), estegfar: estagfirullah al adheem alladhee la ilaha illa huwal hayyul qayyumu wa atubu ilayh, tasbeh: subhanallahe walhamdulillahe wa la ilaha illallahu wallahu akbar wa la hawla wa la quwwata illa billahil aliyyil adheem, grattitude: shukrulillah.
Give daily sadaqah, even small.
Try to fast after Ramadan every second day. Watch your hygiene, bath everyday.
Read mornings and evenings duas from Hisn al Muslimi or Ad Dua Divine help by shaykh Palanpuri and this dua book:
https://www.nooresunnat.com/Audio/Zi...ening_duas.pdf
There are some OTC supplements like Rhodiola Rosea, Sage, Ashwagandha, St. Johns wort, Curcumine, Bacopa, Co Q10, Pygnogenol, or combined formulas like Mindlab Pro or Vitabiotics Neuromind. Inform about them with pharmacist.
They are useful fighting negativity, depression, lack of faculties and zeal in doing good deeds.
Drinking daily 500 mL 100% orange juice is helpful as 200 mL Pomegranate 100% juice.
Cook only with olive oil. Use nigella sativa oil.
Saffron, Crocus sativus is very helpful too, inshaAllah.
Use coconut oil or Bulletproof coffee.
Use everything with besmellah and dua for barakah, like:
https://www.pakrush.com/2020/08/dua-...-food.html?m=1
Try reading a book a week.
Speak with your relatives about every problem you face and ask for a sincere advice.
Incorporating everything above will inshaAllah improve a lot your mental and physical health and wealth and a lot increase chances getting a good husband and living happy forever after (in akhirah too).