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[AnonymousPoster]

salam bros and sis well i used to be really into the deen then allah swt gived me a test ( i came across some problems) and i failed because i turned to aint depression pills and others ones pills, because of this my health has suffered as i got kidney problems. i want to repent but i cant.

i have repented so many times cried my eyes out and i was sincere then afta a couple of days i would start commitin haram again i want to repent, turn back into the deen but will allah swt forgive me? how can i be so sincere one minute then act differently the next? i feel as if allah swt has probably gived up on me :( plz help

[Hijaabi22]

well the one hadith that cums 2 mind goes along sumat the lines of 'even if your sins are a s high as the mountains Allah swt is always prepared to forgive' and also a person hu sins and then repents with sincerity gets more reward then the person hu hasnt sinnes at all! Subhaaaaaaaaanallah!

[IbnAbdulHakim]

SAHIH MUSLIM

Book 001, Number 0221:
It is narrated on the authority of Ibn 'Abbas that some persons amongst the polytheist had committed a large number of murders and had excessively indulged in fornication. Then they came to Muhammad (may peace be upon him) and said: Whatever you assert and whatever you call to is indeed good. But if you inform us that there is atonement of our past deeds (then we would embrace Islam). Then it was revealed:

And those who call not unto another god along with Allah and slay not any soul which Allah has forbidden except in the cause of justice, nor commit fornication; and he who does this shall meet the requital of sin. Multiplied for him shall be the torment on the Day of Resurrection, and he shall therein abide disgraced, except him who repents a believes and does good deeds. Then these! for the Allah shall change their vices into virtues. Verily Allah is Ever Forgiving, Merciful (xxv. 68-70).

Say thou: O my bondsmen woo have committed extravagance against themselves despair not of the Mercy of Allah I Verily Allah will forgive the sins altogether. He is indeed the Forgiving, the Merciful (xxxix. 53).

SAHIH MUSLIM

Book 035, Number 6533:
Abu Bakr reported that he said to Allah's Messenger (may peace be upon him): Teach me a supplication which I should recite in my prayer. Thereupon he (the Holy Prophet) said: Recite:" O Allah, I have done great wrong to myself." According to Qutaiba (the words were: ) much (wrong) -there is none to forgive the sins but Thou only, say:" Grant me pardon from Thyself, have mercy upon me for Thou art much Forgiving and Compassionate." This hadith has been transmitted on the authority of 'Amr b. al-'As that Abu Bakr Siddiq said to Allah's Messenger (may peace be upon him): Allah's Messenger. teach me a supplication which I should make in my prayer and in my house. The rest of the hadith is the same except with this variation that he said: Much wrong (Zulman Kathira).

I hope this gives you hope inshaAllah.

May Allah keep you in his guidance Ameen!

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