Asalaamu 'alykum warahmatulaahi wabarakaatuh.
sister, remember that all this is just a test from Allaah to strengthen your faith.
Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, "We believe", and that they will not be tested? [Qur'an 29:2]
We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false. [Qur'an 29:3]
But please stay patient, keep your duty to Allaah and put your trust in Him.
And whosoever keepeth his duty to Allah, Allah will appoint a way out for him,
And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if any one puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is (Allah) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish his purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion.
[Qur'an 65: 2-3]
So keep praying to Allaah continuously, because the more a person prays to Allaah for help, the more Allaah will respond to his/her prayers insha'Allaah.
The Messenger of Allaah (peace be upon him) said:
"There is no Muslim on the face of the earth that asks Allah for anything except that Allah gives it to him, or averts from him a similar evil, as long as he does not ask for something evil or for breaking the ties of kinship" (Al-Tirmidhi).
The Messenger of Allaah (peace be upon him) said:
"The supplication of a slave continues to be granted as long as he does not supplicate for a sinful thing or for something that would cut off the ties of kinship and he does not grow impatient.'' It was said: "O Messenger of Allah! What does growing impatient mean?'' He (Peace be upon him) said, "It is one's saying: `I supplicated again and again but I do not think that my prayer will be answered.' Then he becomes frustrated (in such circumstances) and gives up supplication altogether.'' (Sahih Muslim)
So be constant in your prayers, and leave your trust in Allaah, because if you give up on Allaah - who else can we turn to? no-one.
Also try to learn how to perform the salaah because this is a really important pillar of our faith. You can learn how to pray and learn the words etc. off the following link insha'Allaah:
http://muslimconverts.com/prayer/how-to-pray-intro.htm
So remember, if you keep your duty to Allaah, then Allaah will help you insha'Allaah.
On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. (Qur'an 2:286)
You should also read these threads insha'Allaah, as they will be of benefit:
http://www.islamicboard.com/basics-i...plication.html
http://www.islamicboard.com/basics-i...p-destiny.html
Allaah Almighty know's best.
Peace.