Missing thoughts,missing person,me,myself and I

[Aaqib Ahmed]

Salaam,

Inshallah you like this poem,alhumdulilah I won a prize with it.:)

SURAH AR-RAHMAN

In the quitness of my vivid thoughts
i reached out far,far as the sky
and found nothing,nothing at all,

Where are you AR-RAHMAN?

patient tears flowed up on an endless crevice
burning the current's path in to a deeper emotion-
vision of material and mentall success, possessions,fame,hopes and fantasises
built empty dreams upon weak ideals,
in a safe-created world, my self-created world,

Where are you AR-RAHMAN?

i was surrounded,drowned within my own thoughts,my own soul,
by frustration, denial, and an image of who i'd become
Recollection of particles,
of school,
of life,
of award,
of moments that were drawn upon reflect" living"
and "achievement" ,

Where are you AR-RAHMAN?

attracted like a magnet by a girl who thought she was my artist,my dream,my rose,my heart,my soul,
an artist drawing in my heart,
playing with my incapacitated heart,playing with my weak broken emotions,
my heart
is nothing more than petals,petals of my rose, that remains dead to the
conscience of my heart.

WHERE ARE YOU AR-RAHMAN,i neeeeeed u!!!

Memories of times
when i thought i should be happy,would be happy,can be happy.
I stood shuddering in a shamefull loneliness,
just me,myself and I,well I'm used to it now,
letting the bitter horrible wind of reality consume me and eat me up,burning me,
and yet i don't know why...

AR-RAHMAN,pleeeeeeease answer MEEEeee!

feelings i see in my patchwork of faded existance,i feel invisible,gone,lonely within the
depths of my lost abandoned soul,my heart,myself,
my lonely life seems to reveal that something was missing,
was always missing,what is missing,u know,
I quit my self furthur & try to find out why the tears
burn with shame and the Noor has disappeared,you ask what Noor,you would ask that,as I have no qualities,I am a nobody,
from my shining,glowing, beautiful face,my innocent eyes shed tears,
the tears had become an ocean,which ships could go on,
which I drowned my loved ones in,

AR-RAHMAN,pleeeease remove this severe hardship from MEEee!!

perhaps it was never there
perhaps i never let it into my heart
perhaps i thought i was strong enough on my own,
just me,myself and I,three souls, three hearts
,three people who love me,care for me,three chances,3 glimpses of hope,desires,temptations,
i guess i don't need anyone else,
i guess its fine to have a jigsaw piece of your life missing,
which is me,forget about me,I am just a particle,an atom,wind blowing to your heart
and boucing far away,away from you,because I have no place in your heart,
i cry my heart out,my soul out,
my tears of water become red sticky blood,
blood dripping down my miserable face,my heart broken,
cracked,losing everything,losing my loved ones,
losing my brothers and sisters,who I love,love so dearly, love with devotion,tenderness,passion
love within the depths of my heart,i fear,
as long as your all happy,i'm happy,
don't worry about me,
I'm just a fragement of your imagination,

AR-RAHMAN, surely you can’t leave me,like everyone else has,
U say your always there for me,
Then SUDDENLY, comes a glimmer of hope,a glimmer of light,sight, by the Al-Might,

every second I live is a blessing,every breath I take is a blessing,every bite I eat is a blessing,every sip I drink is a blessing,
the fact is oh AR-RAHMAN,you are always there,giving me a chance,giving me light,I just don’t realize it with my corrupted mind,

look at the atoms in water flowing coherently,
look at the sun,shining its light and heat out,
look at the solar system,spinning every second,so precise,so concise,
look at the plants,which stay happy when it rains,thunders,storms,
look at nature,how it is perfect,how it sets the standard for us all to follow,nature stays happy,so should I,
look at the bright shiny colours,yellow,blue,green,red,
I can taste their sweetness,their shine,their glow,their fruityness touching my tongue,
look at the birds singing all in a group,bright early during day,
dark late during the night,

Oh AR-RAHMAN,you are worthy of much more then praise,I forget u,
U remember me,i walk towards u,u run towards me,

Oh AR-RAHMAN,u have given me a strong companion,the Holy Quran,
I don’t need anyone else,the Quran adds another dimension to my life,
SUBHANALLAH!!
the Quran gives my hope,when i open it up,i see a whole new world,sin free,when I put it against my chest it purifies the pain in my weak heart,the Quran calls me,read me dear muslim and I run towards it,unlike some people who use it as decoration in their cupboard,
such poetry,
such elegance,
such excitement,
such fear,
such beauty,
all in one,just look at the Surah,the Surah AR-RAHMAN,this Surah mashallah sums up the message,the objective of life,Allah U are the artist of poetry,

this Surah has meanings as deep as an ocean,every water drop makes up one letter,SUHANALLAH!!!

Ooh AR-RAHMAN,you have given me the answers,the rules,everything and yet I want more,more,more,
I will always remember,
When Allah loves a person,He inflicts him with hardship,
It is not just me,myself and I,
But me,myself,I and AR-RAHMAN by my side at all times!!



" Oh Allah(swt) please forgive me,
i need YOU, I need YOUR guidance,YOUR forgiveness,
YOUR mercy. I am nothing when i fail to remember YOU,
Iam nothing without YOU,
.... I am nothing at all"

surely u are the most beneficent,the most merciful.

Wasalaam