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I think part of that is anxiety, and once Ali ibn Abi Talib was asked - what is the most strongest thing Allaah has created?
He took 10 fingers out and said;
- Allaah made the
mountains which have been standing for centuries.
However, mountains can be carved out and cut by
Metal. Therefore Metal is stronger.
However, metal can be melted by
fire - so fire is stronger.
But fire can be extinguished by
water, so water is stronger.
But water can be carried by the
clouds.
But the
wind can blow the clouds in different directions - so that is stronger.
But the
son of Adam can walk even if the wind comes in his way.
Yet
intoxicants can even weaken the son of Adam and make him lose control of himself/herself.
But
sleep can overcome this feeling of the effects of intoxication.
However, one cannot sleep if they have
anxiety.
And this is exactly what the Messenger of Allaah used to pray that he doesn't fall into:
‘O Allaah, I take refuge in You from anxiety and sorrow, weakness and laziness, miserliness and cowardice, the burden of debts and from being over powered by men.’
Anxiety is when you fear the future, and sorrow is regret over the past and continuous sadness. This isn't a good characteristic in the believer, and the person should place their trust in Allaah. Know that everything is in His control and nothing can harm you or benefit you except by His permission.
So what to do when you feel this feeling is to place your trust in Allaah, and leave the matter upto Him. Just make sure you don't go to the extent where you feel so attatched to the thing - that it makes you leave your disobedience to Allaah. Because this is a trick from shaytaan, and it can be a gradual process or even a quick process.
So your main aim should be to first apply islaam more whole heartedly in your life once again in order to get that strong emaan like you had in the past.
Recite the supplications of the Messenger of Allaah, like the dua' above, and also recite surah al-Nas [114] and surah al-Falaq [113] because they are a cure to the evil eye. Inshaa Allaah if you leave your trust in Allaah after that, you'll feel more happy and content. And Allaah knows best.