Originally Posted by Muj4h1d4
First of all i dont want to discuss in detail how it was that i feel in love because its personal and i dont want the whole world to know
all i know is that i want to be cured from this diease as its wrecking my life and because of it i have had some painful times,full of sorrow and misery.I've been through depression tablets and a lot worse which i dnt want to discuss.
Anyway it first started when i joined a forum,islamic one.
i was new to islam,born muslim but not really practicing anway i posted my email address as i wanted to make a lot muslim friends.Female ones lol
people presum that just because you been through love or are in love that some how your the "loose" type
well im not far from it
anyways i did get replies from many muslimah and few male forum users however i choose not mail back to the brothers as i dont free mix usually.
i recieved one e-mail from a "famous" brother one im sure many of you would admire/do admire
i was utterly shocked and a little excited as i never meet a "famous?" before
at that time i had no crush or any "lovey dovey" thought about that brother as he was a 15 years my senior and i didnt find him pysically attractive.He had big ears,was really dark,short and just averageish looks.
i did however admire the work that he did(like many others)but not to the extend of being a fan.
so sister you asked me if what i was feeling was just physical attraction well the answer would be no as i did not "fancy" him in anyway.
Im 20 years old although i can be pretty innocent in many ways ,as i have had a very protective up bringing,i consider myself to be quiet mature.I know my feelings and well i have been through times when i have "fancied" a guy (but i never took it further as it goes against my asian/semi muslim upbringing.)
i know this is not one of those times
Its different its just as sweet as it is bitter