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*charisma*
I have a story to tell you lol..
When I was much younger, there was a brother who inquired about Islam (he was nonMuslim at the time). I was also still learning about Islam because I was very young and so intrigued with it. He'd always ask me questions and I'd always answer them as much as I could. I wasn't harsh or mean to him, but rather I was patient and treated him with kindness because that's just how I was you know? One day we were talking about brotherhood, and I think he loved the concept of being a part of an Ummah that looks out for each other and stuff, so he took his shahada. I was so happy I cried! He said that he was so happy to now consider me a sister, and it was really beautiful to hear him say that. He also thought about his parents and said that because Islam holds parents in such high regard that he plans on taking care of them himself when they reach old age. He was taught that parents are put in a "home" where they are taken care of by others and neglected.
Sometimes these moments don't happen often enough because the world is rapidly changing, but you have no idea how many people in this world are lost and just hoping to find guidance. They may have never heard about Islam, so we have to be wary of how we represent Islam because sometimes our actions and our words are the only exposure they get, and we want that experience to be positive, no?
If you do something that you didn't know about, then Allah excuses you for it! He's the Most merciful! Even if you commit a sin you do know about Allah will forgive you if you repent. Don't ever doubt Allah's mercy. May Allah guide us all ameen.
You know all the real answers to the questions you are asking deep down inside. You don't have any reason to hate anyone right now. You're not in war, you're not in a state of oppression, there's nothing harming you brother. So be at peace with yourself inshallah. If it helps read the tafsir of the Quran it will make a lot of the ayahs clear, and finish the entirety of the Quran so you can get a better understanding.