I am fearing about my iman. Confusing questions create doubts

Those are same things I sometimes think and can´t find answers. But I think it´s quote same like I sometimes wondering the universe and the outer space. Like how big it is and if there is some limit like the rear wall, then what´s behind of it or as scientists say that the space is expanding, then to were it expands and so on and can´t understand much. When I think Allah and all this stuff we call worshipping and why, I have to admit how limited my understanding really is. I don´t know if I can explain it well. Allah and reason for everything is like my things about space; I might not know reason for everything or understand everything but it doesn´t mean that the things I don´t know wouldn´t exist. Like endless space. The space must has good reason to be endless but I just don´t know that reason.

I better land back to the earth - I afraid my explaining is tortuous.

Confusing questions always create doubts.

The real problem is that I have noticed whenever we have confusing questions, we almost hardly ever refer to the Quran for answers. Instead we ponder on it ourselves. We, who know very little trying to fathom answers only Allah knows.

The other incidental problem (also real) is our own willingness or rather, our unwillingness to accept the answer once it is given for whatever reasons.

For some, they find things to confuse themselves with and for others they just obey blindly. There is the middle road. Things which confuses, are not meant to be understood for now, there will come a time when it will unravel itself. Not all knowledge is given. Likewise for success; hardwork and persistence does not guarantee it.

What is guaranteed is that we all will face an uphill climb, a life of tests, in bad and in good. Whether we like it or not, accept the test or do not accept the test, we are already undergoing it. We can scream and shout, or ... or ... well you get the picture. What we have is a great gift. An entirely phenomenal package that is in the form of human beings.

From reason alone we can establish that there is a Creator of everything in this universe, multiverse, or not in the universe, multiverse or whatever.. and from there to recognise the Creator and pay salutations to Him in remembrance of Him and for all His blessings to us.

To do that really is to also by default, to humble ourselves to Him. When we humble ourselves, we remove any traces of arrogance in ourselves that we can survive on our own accord, that we determine our own destiny! We do not! We get (on earth) what Allah gives with His mercy, but how we receive it is what we are judged on after we have left this world.

And if we really looked deep inside, I believe that the spirit of the community, as defined by the islamic 'principle' would be the kind of community we would love to live in. But it is not easy to establish one. Because we, (by training of the evil forces) will always question a good thing.

But you are right though, Allah does threaten! Allah also reminds, Allah warns, Allah also guides, forgives, and a host of other things. What He won't do for you or me is to make the choice. All choices are ours. The decision is made using our mind, weighing reasons and desires.

So, the confusing questions really are the works of Satan who whispers seeds of doubts to get you to be 'haughty' like him. He ranked himself superior and through arrogance questioned Allah's infinite wisdom.

You see? Satan was in the presence of Allah, communicating with Allah and yet was arrogant. The muslim population at large has never had that experience and yet believe in Allah as much as Satan himself. How is that possible? So, Satan still has his work cut out and his work is to plant seeds of doubts.

Shaytaan tries to make good look evil and evil good in our eyes. Wallahi, the more you read Qur'aan with good intentions, you won't even have such doubts.

Try to memorise. 2-3 ayahs a day from a surah you choose till you have finished that surah. Or however many ayahs you can memorsie.

And Allah knows best.

Having a question, there is nothing wrong with it. The issue with you and i see this VERY VERY often with Muslims..being reverts but majority being born Muslims, they have questions and LOVE to think of new questions, but somehow refuse to ponder about the answer.

All the questions you have, i have my answers to all of them. Not just answers but firm answers, with the exception of 1, however even to that one i have some answer to it.

Which one am i talking about?

"as it happens with me when i start imagining that Allah created us and want to test us to finally put some in paradise and some in hell and everything is over and accomplished. What is the purpose of it at the end?"

This reminds me of the people of the cave. When some people are guessing to how many of the of those young guys were and the other being their dog. This rather teaches us, ask questions so the answer might benefit you. Let's say we know the answer to this question, what then? Will you suddenly be able to lift 200 kg? Will you suddenly in a instant become the highest of the believers? What is the benefit in it? I see no benefit even when knowing the answer to it. Like somebody telling me i ate bread with cheese in the morning..my reply "OK"..=_=!.

The other questions, sister..ponder more often, Allah will give you the answers in'sha'Allah. However if you ONLY think about new questions, but refuse to ponder what wisdom Allah has behind it, you will off course never get the answer to it. We Muslims have become very shallow minded. We have 1000 questions and we LOVE to think of new questions, but when it comes to pondering about the answers suddenly we are too busy.

There are two types of questions.

Type 1: I will have some kind of benefit from knowing the answer to this question.
Type 2: I will have no benefit of even knowing the answer to this question.

Then you have the way we think of questions.

Type 1: I know the answer and whatever Islam says being contradictory to my answer is false (teacher mode)
Type 2: I do not know the answer but i am wondering what Allah means by this. (student mode)

ALWAYS be the student, because being the student, you adapt to the humble attitude. The last thing my advice to you is and this one is CRUCIAL!!..CLEAN YOUR HEART!! Arrogance, pride, stubbornness, envy, greed, ..those are if you ask me the cause of much of it that prevents you to have a more stronger connection with Allah.

i can give you the answers to the questions you have, but i am afraid that even if i would give you the answers, understanding does not come from me, but from Allah. The thing that prevents you from understanding are exactly those things i talked about in your heart.

Also lets say i give you the answers, i have the mentality to not want to spoon-feed people, rather i want people to be only dependent on Allah. If i would help you answer these questions, you will tomorrow have even 10000 more questions. So rather ask Allah those questions yourself. There is no need to be a scholar of Islam to understand these answers.

"Indeed, [O Muhammad], you do not guide whom you like, but Allah guides whom He wills. And He is most knowing of the [rightly] guided." Qur'an 28:56

Guidance isn't just ooh i follow the path of Islam, but knowing and understanding what you are following, including the questions you have. So rather make your connection with Allah more firm by cleaning your heart and submit more.