Are my tears worth anything? How to accept the qadr of Allah?

The problem is with your imaan and not wealth status.

Allah tests us with poverty and we have to remain patient and grateful. The peace of bread and water you lived on should be looked upon as a great bounty from Allah as there are children in Africa that don't even have that

I anticipate a frustrated and anguish filled life for you brother if you don't become a grateful and content* person than the complaining and ungrateful attitude you have now

Hmm I didn't read all of what you wrote but I can say, very few things hurt my own fate more than the hadiths about Qadr. If I'm being honest you, I say Dua very very half heartedly after reading those hadiths than before.

As Salaam u Alaikum

Respected bro,
Allah will give you.Not now but in future in this world itself along with reward of hereafter InshaAllah .Allah SWT will give.Focus on imaan.Read life of Ibn taymiyyas',he lived poorly but Allah raised his status amongst best of His slaves.We all know him for being one of the bestest & amongst Awliya of Allah.

Money means nothing.It's good if you have it & it's equally good if you don't have it.But,you might be going through a temporary poverty.Remember you joined low ranking uni,leaving top uni,for ALLAH?

So,when we give up something for ALLAH Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala we get tested whether we are true or not.Remain patient ,obedient & being grateful for what you earned in terms of good deeds is better than wealthy status& see how much you are truthful to Allah.

"Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: “We believe,” and will not be tested.

And We indeed tested those who were before them. And Allah will certainly make (it) known (the truth of) those who are true, and will certainly make (it) known (the falsehood of) those who are liars, (although Allah knows all that before putting them to test)."

Surah Ankaboot


We get tests for our imaan.We get tested with wealth,poverty,illness,loss of fruits,deaths,major calamities but,

"Give Gladtidings to the saabireen-Those who when struck with calamity says 'Verily we belong to Allah & to Him we return.These are the ones who get blessings & mercy from their Rabb..."

Surah Baqarah

We all go through tests but what we got to remember is Allah has promised rewards in both the worlds for the ones who goes through severe hardships & still remember ALLAH & are obedient to Him.

Recite Surah Yusuf with translation & see Aayat that are speaking of reward for the muhsineen (good doers)

So,work on doing Tasbeeh,Istighfar& Duas with nawafil.You need to keep hope that Allah will make things easier with time.Nothing happens overnight.We need to become steadfast first & then the reward appears.First thing is reaching to isteqamah by Allah's help.

Allah says :

"Allah will help him who helps His religion"

Surah Hajj

So,help Allah's religion,study & give dawah - spread Islam, busy yourself.Make your goal to be like Ibn taymiyya one day,a star of Islam,InshaAllah

Allah will enrich you in imaan & with dunya too with your hard work & love of Islam.

May Allah reward you& have mercy on you blessing you with a house in Firdaws Al Aala.

Aameen

As Salam alaikum

Brother like the sisters and brothers are saying read surah yusuf and surah baqarah

You are blessed to be of those who worship the one true God...as you see majority on earth are polytheist...

Be happy with what you have

if life gives you lemons make lemonade