i dont even know where to start. honestly being i am truly losing religion. i have been what i consider a good person since i was a child. during the teenage years i was tested with being round people who werent worshipers and I maintained my worship. i been praying salah since i was 14.I never smoked a single cigar, no drugs, trying to be respectuful to peole ( and it shows cause they love me back) i never fornicated. i dont watch pornography, i dont listen to music, i dont even masturbate..i stay away from evil and sin as much as i can but yet i do believe God isnt loving me or doing me any favor.
lets put it this way. i expected that God would lead me into a better life . i only get hardships. mom died when i was 18, things just dont go my way. while i try to see light and good in all whats happening its tough for me i am not financially stable- its tough to find jobs especially recently while time is running up for me.i try so hard to get jobs. whats truly testing me and occupying my mind is that im not bein able to find a woman ( and never had a relatiionship with a woman mostly cause of fear of fornication)
i like a girl a lot but she doesnt like me back i suppose.i lost contact with her cause she closed all social networks and i dont see her anymore on the street. she was beautiful and also shy.. which truly attracted me .i dont even know where to start with this case but i feel so so so sad cause God didnt write for me and this girl to be together yet i love her so much and am not able to get over her for more than a year. its rare that i like someone (even tho i am not shy at all) let alone the woman i want to marry. i basically feel that GOD DIDNT FAVOR ME , or loves someone more than me thats why HE gave her as a price to him and not me.. do i deserve this??
i prayed everywhere for this woman. in the mosque, at work when i used to have one, at the house, everywhere cause i wanted this to happen so so much. no matter how much i try ( by not looking at her pics on her abononded social media account( im just not able to forget her beautiful face.
i feel so broken hearted cause i see god providing for people who dont even care bout religion, they get more wealth and more amazing woman and here i am, a person who was grown a believer- left and forgotten. and that makes me feel betrayed, it kills me, its burning me.
now more than ever i need a miracle.
yes i know that allah sometimes withhold something from you cause he has something better in store but really> better than this woman? i dont think so.i am 25 nd i havent seen anyone as her. its becoming late for me as a 25 year old to find a virgin woman who is also a beauty and kind like she was. someone please just tell me if God really loves me at all?' even tho i continue worship and keep distance from sins, im hanging on by a thread here. i no longer feel love.. how can u love someone when you devoted your life to him, yet He gives the best to others and not you?
Jabir bin 'Abdullah narrated that the Messenger of Allah (s.a.w) said:'A slave (of Allah) shall not believe until he believes in Al-Qadar, its good and its bad, such that he knows that what struck him would not have missed him, and that what missed him would not have struck him." (Jami 'at Tirmidhi)
i am too dissapointed to even make a dua again let alone keep worship.
Why would she end up with someone like you? You realise now why it didnt happen?
You dont deserve her. You left Allah for a person, why would that person leave Allah for you? Have a nice life. We'll see how much nonmuslims will love you
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only a miracle could bring md back. Something that would fill me with joy. But looking at how my life has gone, that wont happen.miracles dont happen to me. Sadly ;(
If only a miracle.. could show that Allah loves me. If only He had given me this baby girl ;
.. i have seen so many girls but none like her before or after her.
I wont be able to forget. I cant foget. I dont want to. Iwant her kn my future. Why wasnt it written in the stars for me.. damn whw your soul aches so bad to have something and it just fewls like God doesnt ever work on your favor. So how can i feel loved?
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Easy for some of you to be hard on me,you have no clue what i have been or am going through. Im losing hair..
Prophet Muhammad SAW said: "...And if something (bad) befalls you, do not say, 'Had I only done such-and-such, then such-and-such would have happened, rather say: Qadrullaahi, wa maa shaa' fa'ala (This is from the Qadr of Allah, and He does whatever He will).""
Do not overthink, it was the Qadr of Allah and it was best for you, that's all you need to know.
"At times, you may think everything is going wrong, yet you don't realise that Allah is setting everything straight." -safina5.tumblr.com
Sometimes, Allah tests us twice because we failed the first time and He wants us to pass.
"ALLAH SWT does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear..." Quran 2:286
May Allah SWT enlighten our hearts, clear our minds of unnecessary thoughts that may lead us astray and may He strengthen our Imaan.
Thr thing is , i really feel betrayed.looking at what Good Allah gives to others and how He is depriving me of a basic need.
Nothing can fix this. I exprcted from Allah as he is the creator of All things . I wss foing fine with religion before this happened.
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You see,none of these words are doin it for me. I need to see things manifest in reality no words.
Majority of problems in this life are by people dont blame Allah
You prayed to have the woman you love what if she was just beautiful on outside only
You do know beauty fades with age right
behavior changes too
when we were kids some of us were extremely shy but we later grew to be bold
I have experienced love and she didn't feel the same i even asked her for marriage
but i dont blame Allah nor do i blame her
As its a person choice to be with who respect it
I am not saying its easy but it's right thing to do
Your mom passed away
every soul shall taste the death even Prophet Mohammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam had to go
do you know prophet Mohammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam was orphan
Imagine being alone and having a duty to spread Islam and save others
people threw rocks at him but he stayed loyal to Allah kept spreading the message of my lord Allah
you are not financially stable but do you know there are people who dont even have food
Prophet Mohammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam lived a life of poverty though he could have asked / requested to Allah for luxury but he didn't
If you do good deeds stay a Muslim your reward is at judgement day heaven
do you know the story of Pharaoh he was powerful and very rich in this world but will stay in hell in after life
If you are a Muslim and stay a Muslim i guarantee my lord Allah loves you
Also when you feel weak read this hasbunallahu wa ni'mal wakeel .
Bro, the thing is , if she was written for me she wouldnt have said no.
The thing is i feel disspaointed that im having to wait so long to
Get a basic need met, and i dont get to have a beauriful girl like her
Which in turn makea me feel dissapointed.
Why someone else grt smth so beautiful and me,nothing
And moztly in life only pain..
Its not ..fair.
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format_quote Originally Posted by Shayan'M'
Majority of problems in this life are by people dont blame Allah
You prayed to have the woman you love what if she was just beautiful on outside only
You do know beauty fades with age right
behavior changes too
when we were kids some of us were extremely shy but we later grew to be bold
I have experienced love and she didn't feel the same i even asked her for marriage
but i dont blame Allah nor do i blame her
As its a person choice to be with who respect it
I am not saying its easy but it's right thing to do
Your mom passed away
every soul shall taste the death even Prophet Mohammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam had to go
do you know prophet Mohammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam was orphan
Imagine being alone and having a duty to spread Islam and save others
people threw rocks at him but he stayed loyal to Allah kept spreading the message of my lord Allah
you are not financially stable but do you know there are people who dont even have food
Prophet Mohammad sallallahu alayhi wa sallam lived a life of poverty though he could have asked / requested to Allah for luxury but he didn't
If you do good deeds stay a Muslim your reward is at judgement day heaven
do you know the story of Pharaoh he was powerful and very rich in this world but will stay in hell in after life
If you are a Muslim and stay a Muslim i guarantee my lord Allah loves you
Also when you feel weak read this hasbunallahu wa ni'mal wakeel .
If i am not getting fairness from thr divine.. where can i expect fairness now..
Why am i still here?
Last week i tried to start praying again but i just.. dont feel it.
Cant lie. I give up trying.
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Its like.. i can make a perfect prayer but if deep down i have lost faith in good, its useless. To.put it simply i am.dissapointed and no matter how much im trying to go back its just not feeling right..
But id i no longer feel the l9ve cause of all the burdens put over me then whats the point of praying, when the main thing is - i am absolutely numb.
I been trying to fix myself by eating more magnesium, eating nothing from plastics, from estrogen compounds, trying to fix this as if its an chemical balance.
But rlts face it. Its smth from the heart. And all your advices arent helpint me ,i wish they did. Cause deep inside i wish i was a better believer but the corcumstances have inded pushed me further and on the brink.
The thing is im not trying to just..avoid peoblems. I wanted to face them and i did and i failed. So now i feel.. numb.
The feelin how Allah gives to some so effortlessly and I try so hard and achieve nothing ,just kills that 0.2 percent iman left in me.
I just cant come to a logical or reasonable thinking behind why is my life so hard?
What is wrong with me? Why am i not loved?
Why do i have to go through all these things?
I know with words easy to say that " it will be fine" but nah, i been hearing that since yearzs and its not gettin any better.
And for the first time in life,im also thinking of suicide.
Used to be more confident now i get easily tears in eyes,
I have lost soul and heart.
The only thing thats keepin me.round is my father. If i killed myself then he would be devestated. But one day i might just decide that u know what this is too much, i gotta go.
Why would she end up with someone like you? You realise now why it didnt happen?
You dont deserve her. You left Allah for a person, why would that person leave Allah for you? Have a nice life. We'll see how much nonmuslims will love you
I deserve to cease existing but even that isnt happeninh
i hoped that Allah would have rewarded me with a good spouse and a good living but things just dont seem to work that way. who knows , maybe a miracle might bring me back one day - but to be honest i dont feel like it. i dont feel like being a practicing muslim, or seeking any more knowledge. my heart is broken i cant be fixed.
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so it be. i cant lie to God bout how im feeling , bout this dissapointment. i cant keep being like this. who knows that miracle might come if God would ever want me under his realm but i.. dont think its happening. goodbye everyone and thanks a lot for reaching out.
Let me share a personal (embarrassing) story with you. When I was in high school and not a Muslim, I met this girl at a party who told me I was "cute". Since then, I had a crush on her for years. This girl was beautiful and had an amazing smile. Her name was Angel. No, really, her birthname was Angel. For years, I obsessed over her. She lived in a different town and was visiting a friend so I didn’t get to see her very much after that: just by chance every now and again. This proved to be agonizing and every time I did see her I would be tormented all over again.
Anyway, years went past, I grew up and matured a bit and finally after a very long time I saw her at a party and she….ummm…gained a little weight and I was like….ummm…..okay. And I didn’t have any real feelings for her after that.
I later became Muslim, much later got married, fell in love (notice my ordering) with a beautiful Muslimah whose beauty was far greater than that “Angel” I obsessed over years prior and with whom I have since lived “happily” ever after going through intense difficulties and trials (the like of which makes those who hear about it drop their jaws in awe wondering how we can both be so stable after going through so much) all the while maintaining my gratitude to Allah, who has never betrayed me, for His limitless favors upon me.
You say Allah betrayed you? Allah never betrays anyone. You show me one single ayah or Hadith where Allah promised a spouse in Dunyah to whoever believes and does good deeds. Allah never fails in His Promise. He didn’t betray you, you betrayed Him. You put the love of a woman above that of Allah (‘Azza wa Jal).
You ask if Allah Loves you, but what you should be asking is do YOU love Allah? Allah Loves every Muslim in accordance with his/her level of Iman. Allah did Love you until you betrayed Him by putting the love of a girl over your gratitude to Him.
Allah (‘Azza wa Jal) said:
Say, "Obey Allah and the Messenger." But if they turn away - then indeed, Allah does not love the ungrateful. (Al-Imran: 32) So remember Me; I will remember you. And be grateful to Me and do not deny Me. (2:152) Allah’s Love is conditional. It has to be earned:
“Whosoever shows enmity to someone devoted to Me, I shall be at war with him. My servant draws not near to Me with anything more loved by Me than the religious duties I have enjoined upon him, and My servant continues to draw near to Me with supererogatory works so that I shall love him. When I love him I am his hearing with which he hears, his seeing with which he sees, his hand with which he strikes and his foot with which he walks. Were he to ask [something] of Me, I would surely give it to him, and were he to ask Me for refuge, I would surely grant him it. I do not hesitate about anything as much as I hesitate about [seizing] the soul of My faithful servant: he hates death and I hate hurting him.”
[Bukhari]
If you put Him above all else, including any woman of this Dunya, then He Will Love you again. But if you persist in your ingratitude simply because Allah didn't give you what you wanted from this dunya when Allah promised you far better than that if you believe, think good of Him and do good deeds for His sake and for the sake of His Great Forgiveness and Reward (not for the sake of this pathetic meaningless dunya) then He Will be incredibly Angry with you and justifiably so.
The Prophet (Salalhu Alaihi wa salam) said:
“If the world were as worthy to Allah as the wing of a mosquito, an unbeliever would not even be given a sip of water.” [Tirmidhi]
This is why Allah gives more in Dunya to those who don't deserve Allah's favor more than those who do: Because dunya is worthless. Dunya is low and is for those who are low. In Akhirah, the right compensation is given according to a person's true worth.
yes i know that allah sometimes withhold something from you cause he has something better in store but really> better than this woman? i dont think so.i am 25 nd i havent seen anyone as her.
Really?
“If a woman from among the people of Paradise were to look out over the earth, she would illuminate everything that is in between them, and would fill everything that is in between them with fragrance. And the scarf on her head is better than this world and everything in it.”
Is this dream girl of yours, whose infatuation has caused you to go astray and whom you have made a rival unto Allah better than what Allah has promised? I don't think so.
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whw your soul aches so bad to have something and it just fewls like God doesnt ever work on your favor. So how can i feel loved?
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