My Convert Story

I grew up as a normal little austrian girl. I went to playgroup, I had lots of lots of puppets, barbies, cuddly toys and so on. Anyway I just grew up like that and I have always been a bit overweight (not much, just a bit) and I have always been kind of obsessed with music. When I was younger I mostly listened austro pop, pop music in our language and the beatles, later on I got into this Justin Bieber-hysteria a bit, not that I EVER liked Justin Bieber, but people like Taylor Swift and so on... Famous people we were putting pictures of them on our walls, dressed like them, walked like them, moved like them... Now after I converted this seems like a strange dream to me...

When I came to primary school I was bullied, because of my weight. There was another boy and another two girls who were bullied, one was a foreigner, the other was also a bit overweight and one girl was just not acting like the others. She was silent, she didn't want fight, she just wanted to learn and have fun.

I wasn't sad during that time, not too much, I still had friends.
Sometimes when a girl was bullying and teasing me very hard I was sad, really sad.

Anyway, when I came to secondary school, everything got better. I went to another school than all of my other classmates, who were going to a normal secondary school, misjudged as easy (it was actually harder than my school) and I went to a secondary school, where you get a better education and better chances for a job. It's my 4th year here now.

When I changed to this school, nothing got better. Still I was bullied, just that I finally didn't have any friends anymore. And I couldn't even make new, nobody liked me. So I got very depressive that time. I only listened punk rock, even went to one concert, I was sinking into music and I thought I don't have to face the hardness of life, music would defend me.

But of course, it didn't.

I was becoming active on g+ that time, I soon got many friends there to chat with and check out new cultures and new people. I could share my thoughts, interests, everything and people liked me for being who I am. I liked that.

Anyway, one day a muslim added me. He asked me to read the quran. I actually was like: “Oh, I don’t want to read Quran…” but he just kept on asking so I said, ok if you find one in my language…” He didn’t. But he found one in English so I started to read. One day he disappeared and never came back. He was in war in Afghanistan, I don’t know what happened to him :’( thank you so much for telling me to read Quran it was my first step torwards Allah…

That was when I met another muslim on Google+. We were chatting very openly and he was telling me about Islam, the true Islam. And not the things we hear in TV in radio, terrorist things and muslim killing the non-believers. Islam is a religion of peace, brotherhood, faith and iman, believeing in one god and equality.

I have always been a person, who doesn’t like prejudice. “Don’t judge a book by its cover…” I used to say that a lot. That’s why people called me stupid (don’t ask me, this doesn’t even make sense to myself inshallah one day I will understand what my classmates did to me). Anyway, I came into Islam, learned more about it and finally I wanted to become a muslim. That religion was just so awesome and Allah, oh Allah thank you for leading me. It was overwhelming.

I did Shahada in the middle of the night, under the blanket on my bed talking to a muslim.

Everything changed in my mind. I would say I am still the same who I were, but my leading changed. Now I hope that more people will find their way to Islam and on youtube there are soo many convertion videos. It keeps my hope up.

Alhamdulillah… I am so happy now and I try to show everyone. As I converted about a month ago, not many people know about me being muslim yet. I am now learning Arabic, exchanging my knowledge about it.