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    If you are a revert please add your story here, because it is very inspiring Alhamdullilah.

    There are several stories on this site:
    http://thetruereligion.org/modules/xfsection/

    I'll post a few:
    Lara


    Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
    DISCOVERING ISLAM: A CANADIAN MUSLIMA'S STORY
    April 25, 1996


    As-Salamu Alaikum wa Rahmahtullahi wa Barakatu (May the peace, the mercy, and the blessings of Allah be upon you).


    I am Canadian-born of Scandinavian and other ancestry, and I was raised in Canada. I have been a Muslima since February 1993 when I was 23. While growing up, I was never affiliated with any religion nor was I an atheist. When I was in my mid-teens I started to think somewhat about religion and at that time I did believe in the Oneness of God (Tawheed). Christianity never interested me.


    My first contact with Muslims occurred when I was introduced to some Muslim international students in 1988. Through them I learned a bit about Islam, such as Ramadan fasting. But it was really not until 1992 that I became interested in Islam. In the summer of that year a Canadian newspaper published a series of articles attacking Islam by using examples of anti-Islamic behaviour of some Muslims in an attempt to vilify Islam itself. Non-Muslims tend to judge Islam on the basis of the behaviour (which is not necessarily Islamic) of Muslims. I was not yet a Muslima but the articles were so outrageous that I sent a letter to the editor in defence of Islam. Now I was curious about Islam. I re-read some articles I had picked up several months earlier from the MSA Islam Awareness Week display at my university. One was about 'Isa (Alaihe Salam) [Jesus] as a Prophet of Islam. Also, I asked a Muslim to get me some books about Islam; they were about the overall ideology of Islam and were written by two famous Muslim authors. Impressed, I thought, "This is Islam? It seems so right." Over the next few months in my free time while attending university I continued to learn about Islam from authentic Islamic books, for example The Life of Muhammad (Salallahu Alaihe wa Salam) by Dr. Muhammad Haykal. One certainly does not learn the truth about Islam from the mass media! Also, newcomers to Islam especially must be careful to avoid the writings of deviant groups which claim ties to Islam so as not to be misled. And just because the author has an Arabic name does not necessarily mean that he or she is a knowledgeable Muslim or even Muslim at all. Also, I learned about Islam from some kind, knowledgeable Muslims and Muslimas who did not pressure me. Meanwhile, I had begun to Islamize my behaviour which did not require huge change. I already avoided consuming alcohol and pig meat. Also, I always preferred to dress conservatively/modestly and not wear makeup, perfume, or jewellery outside my home. I started to eat only Islamically slaughtered meat. Also during this time I visited a masjid (mosque) in my city for the first time.


    Until I discovered Islam, I knew almost nothing about it. I say discovered because the "Islam" that I had always heard about through the mass media is not true Islam. I had always assumed that Islam is just another man-made religion, not knowing that it is the Truth. I had also assumed that a person had to be raised as a Muslim to be one. I was not aware of the fact that all humans are born Muslim (in a state of Islam - submitted to the Creator). Like many "Westerners" I associated Islam with the "East" and did not know that Islam is universal in both time and place. However, I never had negative feelings about Islam, al-Hamdulillah. The more knowledge that I acquired about Islam, the more I felt that I too can actually be Muslim as I found that many of the beliefs that I already had were actually Islamic not merely "common sense."


    So after familiarizing myself with what Islam is basically about and what are the duties and proper conduct of a Muslim person, as well as thinking and reflecting, I felt ready to accept Islam and live as a Muslima. One day while at home I said the Shahada (declaration of faith) and began to perform the five daily salawat (prayers), al-Hamdulillah. That was in February 1993, several days before the fasting month of Ramadan began. I did not want to miss the fasting this time! I found the fasting to be much easier than I had anticipated; before I fasted I had worried that I might faint. At first there was a bit of an adjustment period getting used to the new routine of performing salah and fasting, and I made some mistakes, but it was exciting and not difficult. I started to read the Qur'an (Abdullah Yusuf Ali's translation) when I was given one soon after accepting Islam. Before that I had read only excerpts of it in other books. Also in the beginning, I found The Lawful and the Prohibited in Islam by Dr. Yusuf al-Qaradawi to be a useful guide.


    In January 1996 (during Ramadan) I started to wear the Islamic headscarf (hijab). I realized that I could not fully submit to Allah (SWT), which is what being Muslim is about, without wearing it. Islam must be accepted and practised in its entirety; it is not an "alter-to-suit-yourself" religion. Since becoming a Muslima I was aware that the headscarf is required of Muslim women and I had intended to wear it eventually. I should have worn it immediately upon accepting Islam but for many Muslimas (even some from Muslim families) it is not easy to take that step and put it on in a non-Muslim society. It is silly how so many persons get upset over a piece of fabric! Also, it is interesting to note that Christian nuns are never criticized for covering their heads. Never in my life did I have negative feelings toward muhajjabas (women who wear hijab) when I saw them. What made me hesitate to put it on was fearing receiving bad treatment from others, especially family. But we must fear Allah (SWT) only, not others. In the few months before I permanently put on hijab I started "practising" wearing it. I wore it when I travelled between my home and the local masjid on Fridays when I started attending the jum'a salah (Friday congregational prayer). (Of course, since becoming Muslim I always wore it during every salah). A couple of weeks prior, in du'a I began asking Allah (SWT) to make it easy for me to wear it.


    The day I finally put it on permanently I had reached the point where I felt that I could no longer go out with a bare head, and I thought "tough bananas" if others do not like me wearing it since I alone am accountable for my actions and am required to perform my Islamic duties, and I could never please everyone anyway. Sometimes opposition to hijab is a control issue: some persons just plainly do not like those who are determined and independent especially if it is their child.


    Upon wearing it I immediately felt protected and was finally able to go out and not be the target of stares/leers from men. At first I felt a bit self-conscious but after several weeks I felt completely used to wearing hijab. Sometimes other persons look puzzled/confused, I think because they are not used to seeing pale-faced, blue-eyed Muslimas! By the way, wearing hijab is da'wah in a way as it draws attention to Islam.


    Since accepting Islam I continue to seek knowledge about the Deen (religion) which is a lifelong duty for all Muslims--male and female. Currently, I am learning Arabic and hope to be able to read the Qur'an in Arabic soon, insha'Allah. Reading, discussing Islam with other Muslims, and the Friday jum'a khutba are all educational. Striving to be as pious as one can be and fighting against one's own evil traits (jihad al-nafs) takes effort and is continuous and never ending for Muslims.


    I find Islam ever-more fascinating, and I enjoy living as a Muslima.
    Last edited by Ansar Al-'Adl; 05-04-2005 at 01:40 AM.
    Stories of Muslim Reverts! - Post yours here!

    The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said:
    "Surely I was sent to perfect the qualities of righteous character" [Musnad Ahmad, Muwatta Mâlik]


    Visit Ansâr Al-'Adl's personal page HERE.
    Excellent resources on Islam listed HERE.

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    Quote Originally Posted by AyserMuhammad View Post
    I know what you're thinking sister. Just kidding, but seriously.
    Like it made you curious to see what Islam was about in the first place? Stories of Muslim Reverts! - Post yours here!
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    Re: Stories of Muslim Reverts! - Post yours here!

    I have heard that many people have came to Islam also after WTC attack. They have listened about Islam from the news and despite of negative stories, they wanted to find out what this thing is and are those bad stories true or not by themselves. Later they have found the true Islam.

    Every negative comment in the news spread Islam wider and wider. Those islamophobics should remember it when they tell their lies.
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    We have suffered too much for too long. We will not accept apartheid masked as peace. We will settle for no less than our freedom.




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    The more Islam is given the spotlight in Western media and attacked, those who criticize Islam seem to forget there are many intelligent people in this world who will then research such claims themselves and discover the beauty of Islam in the process The truth stands out from error. Oh the irony
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    Ya Muqallib al-Quloob, Thabbit Qalbi Ala Deenik
    Oh turner of the Hearts make my heart firm on Your Deen







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    Re: Stories of Muslim Reverts! - Post yours here!

    Well you know there is a saying that there is no bad "reclaim". Just like this there is no bad "Dawah". WTC attacks just made people see there is a religion called Islam. After this the ones whom Allah guided accepted Islam. Just make them see Islam. They will find the truth themselves.
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    Daughter of Italian Politician Reverts To Islam


    Italian former parliamentarian has reverted to Islam and donned Islamic hijab, a decision which sparked uproar across Italy.
    “The hijab is my way, the way that Allah has chosen for me,” Manuela Franco Barbato, now Aysha, wrote on her Facebook account, Il Giornale daily reported on May 26.


    “I am proud of the purity of my soul. This is the divine law, who am I to object?” ❤️ ‪#‎ForAllah‬
    Aysha is the daughter of a former MP for Italy of Values party Franco Barbato.The young woman decided to revert to Islam while studying in the Università L’orientale of Napoli.


    http://aboutislam.net/muslim-issues/...reverts-islam/
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    Christ will never be proud to reject to be a slave to God .....holy Quran, chapter Women , 4: 172

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    For a while I was suffering from a spiritual crisis. I had a strong belief in God and was raised as a devout Christian but gradually drifted away as I felt increasingly alienated and hollow with its teachings. I completely fell out of religion but I still wanted God in my life. I began to study many of the world religions seeking to find a solution to the empty void in my heart. I briefly tried Buddhism but just like Christianity I felt a painful emptiness in my heart and I was still depressed.

    I got my first exposure to Islam when I first came to university which has a large Muslim community where I met many amazing and generous people that would play a role in me later embracing Islam. At first, I hated Islam and always thought of it as some backward religion because that was my impression of it based on what I read in the media. I also befriended a Muslim classmate who would become one of my best friends.

    My curiosity led me to visit the campus Islamic Center and prayer room where I was able to engage in a lot of dialog. I quickly became amazed at the beauty of Islam and felt drawn to its message of pure monotheism and its strong emphasis on brotherhood, it felt so natural and beautiful. My hatred of Islam was gone but I was still reluctant to fully accept it; but that changed when I read the Quran for the first time. I began with so many questions and doubts but as I kept reading it seemed to have a clear answer for each one; I tried really hard to find a flaw or contradiction in it but to no avail. After I finished it I was certain then that Islam was the truth and my heart embraced it.

    The next day the same friend and I went to a Mosque and I took my shahadah. After reciting the words I became overwhelmed with emotion and relief – as if I had finally found my way back home after being lost for a very long time. My friend helped me learn how to pray and transition into my new life and now we pray together as Brothers in Islam.

    Today I’ve been a Muslim for a few weeks and have completely changed my life. I love praying five times a day while listening to the Adhan (prayer calling) and reading the Quran; and now I'm taking part in my first Ramadan. Alhamdulillah I no longer drink alcohol, eat only halal and I want to start learning some Arabic.

    Inshallah we’ll all be successful and overcome our challenges.

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    I was Christened a Christian by my parents, but all through my life I never really felt spiritually fulfilled; Not long after I turned 53, I converted/reverted to Islam.

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    Quote Originally Posted by manofIslam View Post
    I was Christened a Christian by my parents, but all through my life I never really felt spiritually fulfilled; Not long after I turned 53, I converted/reverted to Islam.
    I believe that you are amongst of the happiest people of the world: after long searching you saw the light of Islam.

    Stories of Muslim Reverts! - Post yours here!

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    We have suffered too much for too long. We will not accept apartheid masked as peace. We will settle for no less than our freedom.




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    Quote Originally Posted by sister herb View Post
    I believe that you are amongst of the happiest people of the world: after long searching you saw the light of Islam.

    Jazaka Allah khair, Sister Herb! Yes, I am very happy and content, now that I am a Muslim! Alhamdulillah!
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    I am very, very happy to be a Muslim. I am filled with awe and fear at Allah. I feel awe and I am very thankful to Allah that Allah would see fit to guide me to this beautiful religion.

    I am very honored to be among the best of peoples. May Allah bless and guide this ummah. I felt alone. I felt so very alone. And now I am part of a nation which is over a billion-strong.

    Where I live, the people are very hostile towards Allah. They hate Allah. The only religious believers who they accept are the hypocrites.

    People hate me and reject me because I believe in God. Because I believe in God and because I am not of the unbelievers.

    When people insult me, when they hate me without reason- I derive comfort from knowing that I am not alone. In the terms of the highest reality, I have Allah who I can turn to. And since the people who hate God only seem to understand things in worldly terms- in worldy terms I belong to a nation of over a billion. Not just any nation but none other than the noble ummah described in this surah:

    You are the best nation produced [as an example] for mankind. You enjoin what is right and forbid what is wrong and believe in Allah. If only the People of the Scripture had believed, it would have been better for them. Among them are believers, but most of them are defiantly disobedient. -Surah Ali 'Imran [3:110]
    What an honor it is to be a part of this ummah. I must remember to be humble. I must remember not to become arrogant out of how much I love this ummah and how happy I am to be a part of it.

    I did not become a Muslim, however, out of a desire for belonging. I suppose the desire to validate what I naturally know to be right and to live in accordance with fitrah- certainly that played a role. And certainly the human heart has an innate desire for God.

    Islam matches what we know in our hearts to be true. The doctrines of Christianity, the doctrine of original sin, for example- very often they contradict what we naturally know to be right.

    Islam is a religion of logic and of reason. Islam is built on logic. The media wants to portray Muslims as irrational- that is completely false. And that illusion could not be sustained once I had read the Quran.

    When I took the shahadah, I was homeless. I find it hard to think about those days because the way that I lived- I find it so difficult to imagine how I lived that way. I remember sleeping on the sidewalk. I remember the desperation. I remember very much and it is a hard thing for me to think about.

    What brings me joy to remember now and what brought me joy then was the Quran.

    I was at a very low point. My life had been such that I actually believed it was a high point. At that time it was. The standards of what I thought life could be were very low.

    I was a teenager at the time. I was sleeping in this homeless shelter and I remember sleeping next to my Quran. I remember seeing someone sleeping across from me. He mocked me because I wouldn't go to the strip club with him. He was homeless yet when he got money he went to the strip club. I remember he would get back and he would make fun of me. He would make fun of me because I would not do what he was doing. And then I remember when he would not leave his bed and was screaming that he wanted to kill himself. I hope he is doing better now.

    I saw people breaking down like what I saw in that instance. People broke. But my hope was not in myself. Maybe I was not invincible and maybe I was vulnerable. But my hope was not in me. My hope was in my Quran that I would sleep next to. I remember crying warm tears of joy in the homeless shelter while I read my Quran. I was so happy. It was a high point in my life. It didn't matter that I was homeless. I was reading the Quran for the first time and the joy is with me today, thanks to Allah. Insha'Allah I will never forgive. It was like the sun came and brought light into the darkness.

    I had vaguely known about Islam and I was fascinated with it and I was drawn to it. Honestly, what first led me to it were two things that I remember. I saw something about jannah and showing Muslims and their desire for jannah. I thought that was very inspiring. I think it showed a Western couple and showed their their love for this world... and then it showed a married Muslim couple and how they wish for jannah and to love each other eternally in jannah. That was inspiring. I think the other thing I saw was something that gave instructions on how to sleep. Back then I slept on my stomache. Now I learned better! I learned to sleep on my side, I tried it and it was very helpful.

    Okay. Now I will talk about chess. My post is not moving in chronological order. I will explain. I saw the stuff I described in the paragraph above. I saw that on the internet. I knew almost nothing about Islam. And at this point I met a man in a homeless shelter. I had no Quran yet. I had never read it. He was very dignified and kind and he stood out. He was with a woman and he was protecting her in a noble and dignified way- protecting her while they were in a very dangerous shelter (this particular shelter was known for violence and was one which women were generally advised to stay away from).

    Later I ran into that same man. We ended up talking and playing chess. Now this is where it gets difficult for me! Homelessness was difficult but losing at chess may have been harder. I can have difficulty accepting losing at chess.

    I was considered very good at chess. Now I'm probably not so great but... growing up, I was in chess club, played in chess tournaments.... besides the instructors, I was considered to be the best player in my chess club. A lot of people don't want to play me at chess. A lot of people have hated playing me and would avoid playing me because I would beat them. When it comes to chess, I am used to winning. I am so used to winning that I have to make sure not to feel arrogant because I am so used to winning. When it comes to chess, I think I'm Muhammad Ali lol.

    So this guy... he beat me again. And again. And again. He beat me over and over and I stood no chance. I simply was not on his level. This was heartbreaking for me lol. I am not used to losing.

    After he beat me, he wrote down names of chess books for me to study. This man was a chess genius who happened to be homeless.

    And after we talked chess... he mentioned Islam. He talked to me about Islam, taught me some things about Islam, told me where to get a Quran and what translation to get (Yusuf Ali).

    So that was how I ended up with my Quran. I was reading it on my own. I was poor, homeless, desparate, half-delirious. But I was so happy looking back. The guy who was next to me in the shelter- he was a Muslim. We started reading the Quran together and he helped teach me about Islam. May Allah bless him.

    At this time, I lacked understanding of Islam. But I am so happy that Allah was kind enough to send me people to teach me about Islam. Me and my friend who was teaching me about Islam in the shelter- we started going to the mosque together. This was the mosque where I would take my shahadah.

    I am very happy to be a part of this ummah and above all I am happy to submit to Allah in Islam. I am happy that Allah has allowed me to learn about this religion.

    I am very, very happy that Allah sent us a Quran. What if Allah had not sent us guidance? What if Allah had not sent us the Quran? I think about that all the time- how terrible that would be!

    May Allah bless, guide and protect our noble and humble ummah. May Allah bless and guide all the Muslims. May Allah guide all the non-Muslims to Islam. May Allah prevent this world's oppressors from inflicting harm on the innocent. Ameen.

    May Allah bless you, whoever you are reading this. May Allah guide you and fill your heart with imaan, filling your heart with even more imaan if you are a Muslim. May Allah guide you and lead you to the path of Islam if you are a non-Muslim. Ameen.
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    Amazing, over 30 pages, I will read more later. although I am a revert myself, I also love reversion stories. there are tons on YT as well.
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    Jabir bin 'Abdullah narrated that the Messenger of Allah (s.a.w) said:'A slave (of Allah) shall not believe until he believes in Al-Qadar, its good and its bad, such that he knows that what struck him would not have missed him, and that what missed him would not have struck him." (Jami 'at Tirmidhi)

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    Hello , I am 18 and recently converted to Islam. Converting is something i have been looking into for years but only now did i do it and its been the best decision ive ever made. Ive struggled with Alcohol and smoking for much of my teenage years due to me being abused as a child , it was a sort of coping mechanism but now i havent touched any alcohol for over 3 weeks which may not seem a lot but it is for me and i have felt so much better. I made the decision to convert after reading the Quran and then studying Islamic scriptures and honestly i felt touched and for the first time in my life things made sense and i can honestly say islam and Allah and everything really stood out to me and after years of debating it and studying i finally converted 2 weeks ago with the help of 2 really good mates of mine who are also Muslim. However i have been practising in secret due to fear of islamaphobia from my fanily as i am from the UK abd was raised in a christian family.

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    I was brought up in an atheist environment, although should admit that my parents always was quitely believing their own ways.

    In the age of 11-13 I had a brief irrational religious experience, starting from mysticism and finishing after living in local hare krishna ashram due to disappointment.

    Afterwards I became a hardcore atheist considering any religion as a mass psychosis.
    My research experience tought me to doubt any wishful thinking and to seek rational ground everywhere.
    Being not successful in social life I was seeking success through achievements.

    However, while aiming to create AI, I had to think reflectively, to research thinking itself, the life of the knowledge and desires, to learn the ways of society.
    Trying to understand implications of quantum physics brought in more confusion.

    I was amused to see purely logical confirmation of Big-Bang theory (in the beginning was Word) through the principle of minimal absolute complexity but no more.
    Any doubts were accumulating in subconscious covered by the armor of atheistic rationalism.

    I wanted to go deeper into introspective research and 12 years ago I resorted to psychodelics.
    After series of experiments I had a tough experience, which was like an armor-piercing strike through that armor of rationalism. That's when I had insight about divine matters being on the edge of the crazyness and first time sincerely was praying to God to stop this.
    It didn't make me religious instantly,
    I only allowed myself to consider divine influence as a hypothesis, which was gradually gaining weight through the years to come.

    When I went abroad first time 11 years ago, I was often meeting spiritual and religious people.
    I was amused to discover that I could discuss spiritual matters with them if looking for correlations with my own thoughts, not merely rejecting as was trained by atheist society which ridiculed any spiritual words.

    4 years ago, in Cambodia, while being deep into math research, I had an unpleasant experience with fellow expats.
    I preferred way of Truth instead of playing their game. During conflict I was doing what is right and let happen what will happen. I actually felt support of God. But later there was a moment of total loneliness, when I was being hunted and no friends were willing to help.
    Then came the thought: "There is Islam!"

    At the moment, I was rather an agnostictheist. I wasn't considering religions seriously. I was thinking that prophets where some spiritual persons whose ideas were good enough to be widely spread, but religions I was considering as a social phenomenon.
    And also, I used to believe propaganda that Islam is the worst of religions.
    But I myself just experienced false accusation and also before was witnessing politically motivated work of propaganda.
    I realized, that whatever I've heard about Islam is also may be only the propaganda.
    I started to search in internet, registered in IslamicBoard.com.
    Few monthes later I arrived to Malaysia.
    I was learning muslim way of life, considering embracing Islam.
    I had a half of Shahada. I admitted that there is no one worthy to worship other than Allah. I was liking prophet Muhammad way of life but didn't understand the role of Islam and Qur'an in the plans of Allah.
    I would embrace Islam that time if I would see a place for me, if could immigrate into Malaysia or Indonesia.
    It didn't happen yet and when I've got tired of immigration problems I went to Philippines where I spent next 2 years.
    In Philippines I encountered one bright mormon missionary from New Zealand. I was introduced to Christianity such peculiar way. I liked discussions with this guy, I understood role of religions as a guidance for mankind.

    I was planning to resettle to Argentina and in anticipation of receiving innocentive award money prematurely left Philippines.
    I appeared in Thailand without money when my parents couldn't support me anymore no matter what.
    I went to live in Buddhist monastery for foreigners in the nothern Thailand, where I spent 2 monthes with ideal conditions for meditation.
    That was a good experience, there were things which I appreciated, there were things which I disliked, like luck of purpose and idolatry. When I had to prostrate, I was thinking about Allah.
    2 more monthes I spent in local temple near Bangkok, trying to arrange award money transfer and UNHCR application.
    That's when I got tired of it, was praying for a straight path.
    When thai visa expired, it was the end of the 2018, I went to Malaysia.

    This time, I was more willing to embrace Islam, I've learned a bit of all major religions and my personal choice was for Islam, but I was afraid to feel alienated as it was during previous visit and still had some doubts, like whether Islam is Allah's favorite religion or why so many problems in muslim countries.
    As I still didn't receive award money, I kept travelling by hitchhiking same as was doing in Thailand:
    I was simply walking on the highway's side and whoever willing to help a traveller was stopping.
    On my way in Malaysia I've met few good muslims who helped me and resolved my doubts.
    I was walking through a rural area when I was thinking, that I don't know if Allah want me to become muslim, but I decided to make my first step and try to practice.
    So, upon seeing next Masjid, it was Asr time approaching, I asked people in the restorant nearby if there is someone english-speaking and if I can learn to perform Salah.
    Owner invited me to eat, we talked, then imams arrived and we came all together to Masjid.
    - Are you Muslim?
    - Not yet.
    - Do you want to become Muslim?
    And that was it, the invitation. All doubts have gone already, there was only a hesitation. So, my answer was simply:
    - Yes.
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