Aoa plz guide me on this matter i have repented and asked forgiveness and cried too infront of the Almighty there's this person who is a part of musical band in one of his solo works he said something blasphemous to Allah using the word Allah it was about in 2014 he is an atheist he publicaly apologized although he is still an atheist but now he is very close to nature and often asks himself questions which he write in his songs too he is a motivational speaker and has changed his ways i do hope that may Allah guide him waht he did was in his solo work and not with his band now they released a new album and me and my sister said they never made bad songs after this i started thinking that even the solo songs are good until this came to my head and i justified that as i did not remember by saying this there's no kufrbut then i started having this fight in my brain rather saying it constitutes or not if one remembers that he has said it like i know that this person blashemed and i still say i had this huge battle going on that he repented and if one doesnot specifically mean that than this wont be kuff i imagined that if my elder sister would be here she would say its not but then again i had these thoughts coming up that it is general if it meant that too and u at the day of judgment what would do so i decided that its better not to say while having these thoughts i was verbally saying they have(the band not the atheist) amazing songs now the word song in this statement is the one i said after i made the decision of saying this wrong now i think i myself made the decision but after this i still said the word "song" is this considered apostasy? I don't know why i did not stop i knew that now saying this is wrong as i believe that it would constitute kufr and i knew im saying the word song knwing its kufr bht i could not stop now i don't know why my intentions were not to commit kufr nor i would ever dare im a patient of ocd so im extra carefull in all situations i dont know maybe i was in a dazed? Preoccupied by the thoughts? If i knew it would constitute kufr and i should not say it but i could not stop me altjough i have no intentions to comit kufr in first place is it still disbelief