So i fell into the dating trap 9 months ago. The brother in question said he was looking for a wife. I knew this because he was my friends older brother.
To cut a long story short we talked and whatnot and it astahghfirllah it somehow turned into a bf/gf relationship rather than just merely trying to get to know each other.
As soon as i started to develop strong feelings for him and to finally tell my family, he chickened out and told me he "wasn't ready for a relationship".
So alhamdulilah Allah swt gave me the courage to end it, because I truly wanted to make it halal.
But I'm completely heartbroken. SubhanalAllah. It's a horrid feeling and never . NEVER would i put myself in such a position again. InshaAllah never.
My question though is. I feel wronged. Am I?
Allah swt as my witness knows how my intentions were pure from the start. How many duas I made to fulfil my duties as a wife inshaAllah for him one day. SubhanAllah. All my duas were focused on this.
Have i been wronged here?
This guy knew what he had gotten himself into. I had never been with anyone before and the first time i did, i wanted to ensure it was going to lead to something. Surely he knew I was more suceptible to hurt than any other random girl?
He claimed marriage at the start and ended up leading me on and using me. Toyed with my emotions and was relieved i ended it, saying he didn't have the guts to do so. How dare he let me carry on with him like that, while i grew attached to him he bailed and waited for me to leave him?
I have repented and still will. Please tell me if I would gain some justice out of this. Surely Allah swt wont let him let away for hurting and using me like this?
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