Dear brothers and sisters, I'm going through a difficult time right now with my faith. Sometimes I feel maybe I jumped into islam too soon, everything is a struggle for me. From my understanding the religion is not suppose to be difficult but I feel like I can't do anything right in Islam.
I will give you some background info on me. I was born into the Christian faith and baptized, however my family was not religious we did not attend church. When I was a teenager I converted to a pagan religion and practiced that for almost 10 years. My father passed away suddenly when I was 18. I was traumatized. One day when I was in a state of absolute agony I had a vision of angels by the 1000s swarming me in the room I was in. They pulled me upstairs and had me open a drawer in a dresser (which I never look in) which had a bible. Prior to this I never really looked at a bible and shortly after I converted back to Christianity.
When I was in university my high-school friend from back home discovered Islam. For years I thought she had lost her mind. She spent a lot of time attempting to convert me. After while I became obsessed with Islam. I spent all my time studying and reading about it. After sometime I converted myself. This original friend who brought me to Islam no longer practices now, but last I talked to her about it she tells me she's still a believer.
The problem I'm having now is I feel a tug in my heart to go back to Christianity. Christians tell me I'm doing all this work to please God for nothing and I will be doomed to the hell-fire unless I accept back their 'free gift' from God. I never viewed Jesus pbuh as God when I was christian, but as a 'path to God'.
Then on the other hand if I was to leave Islam to go back to Christianity I am surely doomed in that respect as well. I don't want to go to hell brothers and sisters.
I prayed to Allah to give me a sign. I saw behind my eyelids a vision of Jesus pbuh. Is this the work of shayton? I'm so confused. I'm constantly ask Allah to guide me to the right faith but I'm afraid I am not seeing His signs.
I won't go into too many details because I know muslims get upset when you talk about your sins. Please forgive me if I've upset anyone thus far with what I've said already. But to be a 'perfect muslim' I have to give up everything in my life. Where I live, my friends, my spouse. I'm terrified and not ready to do such things.
Please be gentle with me brothers and sisters, you all are the only ummah I have in my life.
I know how you feel sister. I to was brought up in a Christain family and was babtised when I was nearly 18 but my family was and still are practising Christians. When I converted to Islam over 2 years ago, everything was going well, I was praying, wear hijab ect. Then I moved house from being on my own to living with loads of people. That was hard. After a month of being in a new house, I turned away from Islam and went back to Christiantly to keep everyone happy around me (mainly my family). I fell in love with a guy and did things that is not excepted in either faith. When I moved house again, before the begian of last Ramadan, things had changed in my life, like I split up with the guy I loved. I needed something to focuse on in my life. I begain to think about my faith and I realised that the time I wasn't pratising Islam, the one thing that I wouldn't budge on was Jesus (pbuh) as the son of God. I was thinking of going back to Islam and I began to pray about with God and one day at the begining of Ramadan I got text from one of my muslim friends, inviting me to a Ramadan retreat and I knew I had to go back to Islam. I've been practasing Islam everyday since, as well as fasting for the 1st time, which went well. My family wasn't happy with me but they've excepted it and are kinder happy with it do bring things up that makes me un-happy with them when I see them (but I rather not go into them).
You see some people out there have had the simaler expeaces than you.
O Allah, I seek help from you. I seek your forgiveness. I seek your guidance. I believe in you.
I know how you feel sister. I to was brought up in a Christain family and was babtised when I was nearly 18 but my family was and still are practising Christians. When I converted to Islam over 2 years ago, everything was going well, I was praying, wear hijab ect. Then I moved house from being on my own to living with loads of people. That was hard. After a month of being in a new house, I turned away from Islam and went back to Christiantly to keep everyone happy around me (mainly my family). I fell in love with a guy and did things that is not excepted in either faith. When I moved house again, before the begian of last Ramadan, things had changed in my life, like I split up with the guy I loved. I needed something to focuse on in my life. I begain to think about my faith and I realised that the time I wasn't pratising Islam, the one thing that I wouldn't budge on was Jesus (pbuh) as the son of God. I was thinking of going back to Islam and I began to pray about with God and one day at the begining of Ramadan I got text from one of my muslim friends, inviting me to a Ramadan retreat and I knew I had to go back to Islam. I've been practasing Islam everyday since, as well as fasting for the 1st time, which went well. My family wasn't happy with me but they've excepted it and are kinder happy with it do bring things up that makes me un-happy with them when I see them (but I rather not go into them).
You see some people out there have had the simaler expeaces than you.
May Allah make your iman stronger by the day sis
to poster: Yep.. thats why i wanted to show you the video.
dear anonymous all these doubts boil down to having very little knowledge about islam.
you can have a dream about any prophet because Allah sent loads of prophets also you need to learn about dreams also.. most dreams are from the shaytan to confuse a person.i urgently suggest you speak with a scholar about this. sister you are in desperate need of knowledge.
as long as you are alive shaytan will push and push you to revert back to that religion you came from.. a very corrupted religion keep this in mind also. all the bibles are corrupted with a enormous amount of contradictions!
shaytan wants to drag as much people down with him as possible sister because why do you think you are constantly getting these doubts??. he whispers in the heart of a human hes with them every minute or every day tempting them putting one million thoughts through a persons mind
when you accepted islam my dear sister Allah choose you to be apart of this beautiful ummah and that really annoys the shaytan so badly. he will do anything absolutely anything to destroy that person who Allah guided! he picked us just like how somebody picks beautiful flowers that he favors from loads of other billions of flowers he picked us!! now that is something to be thankful for.
please sister dont give up!! don't lose this fight
welcome to Islam first and foremost.
consider your reversion to Islam and your weakness if faith as a vulnerable little baby: healthy, but unable to stand on your own 2 feet.
seeing Islam as "hard" may just mean that you are lacking slightly in faith. Islam very much appeals to you, just there are still alooooot of grey areas as it is still something very new. but you need to know that there is nothing to worry about, however a little effort on your part is required.
I *personally* believe that your weakness in faith maybe stemming from your slight ignorance of what tawheed is as well as your love for Allah not being properly developed. now, im no way trying to be judgmental but the reason why i mentioned tawheed is that this is the reason why we work towards the hereafter...Allah created us to worship him alone, and hence it is importnat to know what how it is we are actually worshipping. if you know what and for whom your efforts are (allah) it is this that will make you more motivated and your efforts more sincere.
teh reason why i meantioned love is becuase loe is an anestic towards the hardship we face. we all have something we are strive to worsing towrds, and very often we are going to face alot of hardships in reaching our goal but there is a key ingriednt which helps us look past this hardhsip and/or make it seem that this hardship is nothing compared to the enjoyement of actually reahing that goal: love. not necessarily the love between 2 people, but just the love of things that we want to reach and strive so hard for.
for example, in terms of a marriage we our look past the faults of our spouses because we love them. if we didn't, then our marriages will be extremely hard to get through.
in terms of men at war (a very great hardship), love for their religion, country, etc is what helps them deal with their fellow men fall in front of them before their eyes (excuse the gory details).
and likewise, love for Allah is what makes the pains and suffering of this world or more the worthwhile. think about it when you were still a non-Muslim would you have been as patient with your hardship? what was it that you were striving for? did you not feel so lost and confused? did you despair often? if you did, reflect on what the reasons were.
if life is too hard, if you have trouble adjusting to your faith, or just generally feel spiritually weak, the key is just to pray. ask Allah to soften your heart and make things easy for you to deal with-works like a treat. never ever underestimate the power of dua.
Last edited by Ummu Sufyaan; 01-27-2010 at 05:21 AM.
...desperate for husnul-khitaam...
please make dua that Allah grants me a good end (to my life). please make dua that Allah guides me.
Allah hu akbar. What a convincing sign for you to further strengthen your faith in His existence and mercy.
Allah swt gives us signs all the time and they are tremendous but we dismiss them. Yesterday I went to pick my sister off from work and when I got into the car I realized I had left my wallet with my driver's license, my phone and driving gloves, I went back up to retrieve them and my dad told me to take a banana because my sister was fasting had called when I was in the garage asking for juice or a fruit to break her fast...
I never forget a wallet or a phone I am a stickler for perfection, but I forgot it that day because Allah swt wanted me to go back home and get a banana for my sister..
sob7an Allah..
on a separate note:
I agree with a member here who stated that having doubts is a sign of faith, and I read a hadith to that avail, that Jews and Christians are content in their faith because they are already led astray and satan has no reason to tempt them. It is the ones who struggle with their faith that are a target..
so hold steadfast insha'Allah
And Allah swt knows best
Text without context is pretext If your opponent is of choleric temperament, seek to irritate him
Allah swt gives us signs all the time and they are tremendous but we dismiss them. Yesterday I went to pick my sister off from work and when I got into the car I realized I had left my wallet with my driver's license, my phone and driving gloves, I went back up to retrieve them and my dad told me to take a banana because my sister was fasting had called when I was in the garage asking for juice or a fruit to break her fast...
I never forget a wallet or a phone I am a stickler for perfection, but I forgot it that day because Allah swt wanted me to go back home and get a banana for my sister..
sob7an Allah..
And Allah swt knows best
SubhanAllah!
I have had stuff like that happen to me also. You are so right, sis that there are signs and reminders for us all the time but we overlook them. Even the littlest things.
To the OP.. Keep striving sister. Do not give up. Do not fall victim to the shaytan's whispers. He is an enemy to u and the rest of us. Treat him like one and draw nearer to Allah (swt).
May Allah guide you. Ameen.
"And hold fast unto Allah, He is your protector, the best to protect and the best to help"
The fact that a book on du'aas from the sunnah has a section on supplications for those afflicted with doubt in their faith, shows that you are certainly not the first or the only person this will have happened to. I believe all the brothers and sisters who have already replied have given you some good advice. The only thing I will add, however, are the actual du'aas (supplications), which you can recite for this.
With transliteration and references they are below:
Supplication for one afflicted with doubt in his/her faith.
He/She should seek refuge in Allah. He/She should then renounce that which is causing such doubt. (Al-Bukhari with al-Fath 6/336 and Muslim 1/120)
He/She should say: "Aamantu billaahi wa rusulihi"
Meaning: "I have believed in Allah and His Messengers." (Muslim 1/119, 120)
He/She should also recite the following ayah: "Huwal awwalu wal aakhiru waththaahiru wal baatin, wa huwa alaa kulli shay'in qadeer." (Transliteration of Surah al Hadeed, Surah no 57, verse 3)
Meaning: "He is the First and the Last, and the Thaahir and the Baatin, and He has knowledge of everything."
ath-Thaahir indicates the greatness of His attributes and the insignificance of every single creation in respect to His Greatness and Highness, for He is above all of His creation as regards His essence and attributes.
al-Baatin Indicates His awareness and knowledge of all secrets, of that which is in the hearts, and peoples most intimate of things, just as it indicates His closeness and nearness to all in a manner which befits His Majesty.
Thank you sisters for your replies, I am going to go through the suggested links, inshallah.
I have a really hard time with prayers and fasting as an example. I know one is suppose to look at these requirements with joy. I find them to be a burden. I feel remorseful for feeling this way. I guess this is a sign of my weak faith? Maybe the more I study Islam the stronger my faith will grow? Inshallah.
if u r not an arab. try visiting an arab country on the month of ramadan there you will see the beauty of prayers fasting.
Just remember there is always a choice, even as Islam says "there is no compulsion in religion".
I would strongly recommend you study Islam in much more depth before leaving your spouse, friends and everything else behind for Islam. Try getting into debates with faith leaders from both sides, and if you must follow a religion, try to see which one makes more sense to you. I know that for a revert it is very easy to get lead into things because it is an exciting time when emotions run high and everything is new. Try to step away from that for five minutes and ask, "Is this really what I need to do in order to earn God's favour?"
Aslamu alaaykum dear sistah
You said you are going through a difficult time…Allah your lord says he tests us in many verses in the Quraan. Read them InshaAllaah they will make you feel better Insha`Allaah sis
[18:7]
Verily! We have made that which is on earth as an adornment for it, in order that We may test them (mankind) as to which of them are best in deeds. [i.e.those who do good deeds in the most perfect manner, that means to do them (deeds) totally for Allah\'s sake and in accordance to the legal ways of the Prophet SAW ].
[3:142]
Do you think that you will enter Paradise before Allah tests those of you who fought (in His Cause) and (also) tests those who are As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.)?
{Every soul will taste death. And we test you with bad and with good as a trial. And unto us you will return.}
Al-Anbiyaa: 35
Here are some Ahadith:
Ibn Abbas said about this verse: "We will test you with hardship and with ease, with good health and with sickness, with wealth and with poverty, with the halaal and with the haraam, with obedience and with disobedience and with right guidance and with misguidance - in order that we may establish how you have shown gratitude (for the "good" tests) and how you have remained steadfast (in the face of the "bad" tests)." And unto us you will return - so that Allah will reward each and every soul according to their actions.
The Prophet (sas) said:
"There is no hardship which afflicts a Muslim but that Allah expiates with it some sin of his - even a thorn which pricks him."
Muslim and Bukhari
"How amazing is the affair of the believer! Everything which happens is good for him. And that is for no one except the believer. When he encounters good times and ease, he gives thanks and that is good for him and if he encounters hardship he is steadfast and that is good for him."
Muslim
Sister Surely Allaah guided you to Islaam, so you didn’t really jump into Islaam too soon, and besides age is not purpous of when you should practice, Islam is the way of Life, we practice our life everyday as a muslim ALhamdulilah
It seems you need to do things slowly at your own pace, and not to jump into things soo quick.. For example if you don’t wear the Hijab, you don’t have to wear it straight away , but do it when its easy for you and when you feel comfortable InshaAllaah..because if you do it all of sudden, “Because you have to do it” , then wear is your love for wearing it for the true reason? Do it for the sake of Allaah, thinking of the benefits, and pleasure of Allah is the first and most important, because what Allaah wants indeed isn’t your for your own harm , but he wants whats good for you sis. As he is the Most-Mercyful and Most Loving Indeed
Your not praying Salaah for nothing, your not keeping away from Haram for god for nothing, your keeping your language clean for your self but for God, because he is the one who put sense into us , your not smoking because it will harm you , or drink alcohol etc I can go on forever Indeed. You are doing all these things for a purpous not for nothing sis. A good purpous, to know how Mercyful Allah is and do good works..
You wont be doomed in hell, If you think about it logically, if your worshipping your creator, staying away from things that can harm you seriously, treating people with kindness, and speaking good words etc, then how can you be doomed?
Jesus Pbuh Was a man, he taught the same message as all the prophets and the final Prophet Muhammad (saw) who was sent for all of Mankind, however, Allah tells us he sent a prophet to every nation to guide the people, as we see from this verse:
[16:36]
And verily, We have sent among every Ummah (community, nation) a Messenger (proclaiming): \"Worship Allah (Alone), and avoid (or keep away from) Taghut (all false deities, etc. i.e. do not worship Taghut besides Allah).\" Then of them were some whom Allah guided and of them were some upon whom the straying was justified. So travel through the land and see what was the end of those who denied (the truth). ..
Allah also tells us why he created us
"We did not create the jinn and men except to worship us" [Surah adh-Dhariyyat, verse 56
Christianity wasn’t brought by Jesus (pbuh), he dint teach Christianity, He Jesus peace and blessings of God be upon him, taught to submit to the 1 God, and he is a messenger of God, if you go back to Christianity, you will be accepting a “Mangod”, and not jesus in no way, you will only be going against his teachings and committing a big sin against God, the Christian belief will always remain as the faith which is based on believing Jesus as God (God forbid) .
Theres soo much out there to learn about Islaam, how to deal with stuff, for if your ill,or sad etc.. Call upon Allah who created u, and only he knows you more than yourself , we have to learn to be patient, Allah shows his signs , although he has shown us many signs that exist till this day , he answers all Prayers (Duas), you have to have patience , if your not patient, you are not sincere in your prayers.
Insha`Allaah I have said enough, and I hope I helped, and I am sure a lot of the brothers and sisters have helped you Insha`Allaah..May Allaah make it easy for your, Ameen
Sorry if I have said anything bad, or wrong
Wa alaaykum salama
"Allah! La ilaha illa Huwa (none has the right to be worshipped but He), Al-Hayyul-Qayyum (the Ever Living, the One Who sustains and protects all that exists).".."[Al Qur'aan 3:2]
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Assalamu alaykum,
I can see why Christianity appeals sis. There are no restrictions, no hard work yet it promises salvation. There was a time when I was an ignorant muslim, and it appealed to me too. I know there are a great deal of restrictions in Islams, and a 1/100 part of me sometimes wishes it wasn't so. But then I can see the logic in prevention being better than cure, and I can't fault Islam even if I tried.
Ukh Scents of Jannah:
I will put the best construction on your quotes. Everyone is judged by their intentions.
When the guidance of Allah is considered a restriction adjustments to our views on the cultural influences we have been exposed is required. When a person makes a determines an religious observance is restricting a behavior or action they had become accustomed they usually don't understand the reasoning in why something is prohibited.
2:216 (Y. Ali) Fighting is prescribed for you, and ye dislike it. But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth, and ye know not.
65:3 (Y. Ali)And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine. And if any one puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is ((Allah)) for him. For Allah will surely accomplish his purpose: verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion.
Educating ourselves on Islamic Concept helps.
Hopefully something constructive was gained from this post.
Ašh hadu al-lā ilāha illā-llāhu, wa
ašh hadu anna Muhammadun ‘abduhu wa rasūluhu
I bear witness that none is worthy of worship but Allah, the One alone, without partner, and I bear witness that Muhammad is His servant and Messenger
As-Salāmu `Alaykum (السلام عليكم):
Sahih Bukhari Volume 6, Book 60, Number 298:
Narrated Abu- Huraira: Allah's Apostle said, "No child is born except on Al-Fitra (Islam) and then his parents make him Jewish, Christian or Magian, as an animal produces a perfect young animal: do you see any part of its body amputated?" (Then he received the following revelation)
Surah Rum 30:30
'The religion of pure Islamic Faith (Hanifa),(i.e. to worship none but Allah), The pure Allah's Islamic nature with which He (Allah) has created mankind. Let There be no change in Allah's religion (i.e. to join none in Allah's worship). That is the straight religion; but most of men know not..."
Surah Ma'idah 5:7
And call in remembrance the favour of Allah unto you, and His covenant, which He ratified with you, when ye said: "We hear and we obey": And fear Allah, for Allah knoweth well the secrets of your hearts.
(Y. Ali translation)
Surah Qamar 54:49
Verily, all things have We created in proportion and measure.
(Y. Ali translation)
Surah Hadid 57:22
No misfortune can happen on earth or in your souls but is recorded in a decree before We bring it into existence: That is truly easy for Allah.
(Y. Ali translation)
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I feel remorseful for feeling this way. I guess this is a sign of my weak faith? Maybe the more I study Islam the stronger my faith will grow? Inshallah.
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