Bro, to be honest, if I grew up and live in environment with negative thinking people who love to blame the other for their problem, I would be depressed too.
From what I've noticed, your problem happen because you feel uncomfortable with people's behavior in your environment. But you tried to 'press' your feeling. However, later you could not again 'press and hold' your feeling, then you were 'exploded' and become depressed.
I understand. I have found few people talked about bearded uncles and hijabi aunties who often talk about Islam but also love to backbiting. And I found too a bad habit among some Muslims, using Qur'an and hadith to force other people to follow what they want. Of course, live among them will make you sick and hate them.
But do you know how many Muslims in the world?. If few Muslims are bad it doesn't mean all Muslims are bad.
I know many Muslims who are open minded and always thinking positively, and of course, far from backbiting behavior. When I had question about Islam, I asked Islamic teachers who I know personally, in non-formal situation, sometime while enjoying coffee and cookies.
Try to find Muslims who positive in thought and behavior, and be close with them. Gather with positive people will make you become positive person too.
But at first you must build positive thought about yourself and other people. Do not thinking that you are bad person, realize that you are actually good person but you just have a problem. Do not thinking that other people are bad and don't hate them, but try to understand that if they are bad in behavior, it's because they haven't able to manage themselves.
You are in my du'a.
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