Assalamu Alaikum
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There's a few worrying things about what you've written, but I want you to realize that this may be a relief for you.
You are
not married. If you did not have your father's permission or a male guardian present from your father's side then this marriage is
invalid, and it's horrifying to know that you were tricked into thinking you were married all of this time. The Prophet ﷺ said, according to the hadeeth narrated by ‘Aa’ishah: “Any woman who gets married without a wali, her marriage is invalid, invalid, invalid.” Narrated by al-Tirmidhi, 1102; classed as hasan by Abu Dawood, 2083; Ibn Maajah, 1879.
Inshallah you did not sleep with the guy or "consummate" what you thought was your marriage.
Please understand that in Islam women have rights such as the right to a dowry, the obligation to be given away by her guardians, the right to a house, a walima, etc. all of which you are not receiving. There is no such thing as a secret marriage in Islam. Along with your male guardian (your father, brother, or someone from your father's side) there must also be two male witnesses or one male and two female witnesses. None of these requirements were available when you agreed to getting married, also constituting your marriage as invalid.
If you have already cut off contact with this man, then continue to do so. He is not your husband. When you are ready to get married inshallah, you must do it the correct way. There's a reason your gut feeling was telling you no. If anything had happened to you, who would have helped you if no one knew about this secret "marriage"?
Seek forgiveness from Allah inshallah, and most of all you have to learn more about your deen so that you can avoid situations like this. Do not speak to any man who is not an immediate relative to you. A man who wants to marry you will honor you and your family, not keep everything a secret. This man wanted to use you.
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