I am pretty sure I got rid of my Islam. I was just thinking about my Allah and then I started getting doubts and then purposefully thought kufr and now I want to die!
I don't want to live no more I killed my Islam because of my sins and now the kufr I have had! I don't know what to do I am super depressed and hurting myself because look at me I have had waswas and now I don't know if I made the the thought or not but I'm pretty sure it was me.
I always thought bad things and hypocritical things against my Islam I always said bad things when asking Allah to guide me towards Islam I think of the opposite. I want to be a Muslim I don't want to lose the one thing that made me happy. I just want to kill myself and I think I should cause now when I say good my heart feels empty and my heart is dead so why should I weep when it was all my fault I should just end it. I feel empty and it's all my fault
Last edited by TheLostSoul; 05-23-2016 at 12:27 PM.
It's just I am worried. Like my head calls me a kafir but I am not and I just and I keep on thinking negativity and then I think I committed kufr. It feels like I have fallen back to square 1
Tell yourself that you are not going to let negativity have the upper hand. The bad thoughts are going in circles and its time to take a step back and say, 'no, this is just not on, its not going to let me down this time', you will be fine.
Al-Bukhaari (5269) and Muslim (127) also narrated from Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him), that the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “Allah, may He be glorified and exalted, will forgive my ummah for whatever crosses their minds so long as they do not act upon it or speak of it.”
So my problem is when I say oh kufr is wrong and not right my mind says the opposite. Then I say I am a Muslim by mouth by my mind goes kafir after like these negative words have been repeated in my head way too much. I know atheism isn't real I know it is fake but the words keep repeating in my head and it annoys me greatly because my heart feels empty. Also I say things like I believe in Allah and my mind goes not see I don't even know if this is waswas or me and it is really stupid because these words have been affecting. So am I sinful?
Last edited by TheLostSoul; 05-31-2016 at 11:20 AM.
So my problem is when I say oh kufr is wrong and not right my mind says the opposite. Then I say I am a Muslim by mouth by my mind goes kafir after like these negative words have been repeated in my head way too much. I know atheism isn't real I know it is fake but the words keep repeating in my head and it annoys me greatly because my heart feels empty. Also I say things like I believe in Allah and my mind goes not see I don't even know if this is waswas or me and it is really stupid because these words have been affecting. So am I sinful?
I asked two Shaykh ( scholars ) about you .. both of them told me ..that's just a waswas he just need to keep avoid thinking of them and Allah won't impose blame upon you about that
I asked two Shaykh ( scholars ) about you .. both of them told me ..that's just a waswas he just need to keep avoid thinking of them and Allah won't impose blame upon you about that
I just thought kufr on purpose or said kufr on purpose I was just fixing myself after a break down and felt sincere in my words and my heart but now at Friday prayers I was about to utter kufr and said kufr in my mind multiple times. Now I am depressed and hurt I am considering just death i am just worried about afterwards as well WHY MUST I HAVE AN IGNORANT HEART WHY MUST I BE ON OF THE MUNAFIQS I SAY GOOD BUT I AM THE WORST. I probably cry fake tears because hypocrites cry to get attention. I am broken and in pain and want guidance but I am just too evil and too ignorant and have no heart. I just want help, help my Islam I want to be Allahs slave I want to go to paradise I don't want to fail
Just live, and pray 5 times a day, ask Allah SWT to forgive you, and live.
you can't possibly keep up like this - please. you will collapse! just be normal, Allah SWT made Islam easy.. Just take it easy.. pray 5 times a day... give Zakat. And fast in ramadhan, be good to everyone you see.
you can't possibly live a normal life and keep on thinking of these waswass.
And that is it. Read Qur'an.
If you disobey Allah SWT, then just hope and ask for Allah SWT's forgiveness.
Just be HUMAN, you know these waswass are waswass.
And Allah SWT knows best.
My problem is I don't know if it is me or not. I have literally broken down my iman feels lost because now I am saying kufr 24/7 and this is the problem what is my status with Allah what am I to him a Muslim or a Muslim that fell into kufr. I tried combating the kufr thoughts all night but now they come to me like it is from me I said astagfrulah but I feel like I have truly failed Allah. My mind does agree though that Allah created this world so yeh. I know I sound annoying but this is my problem have I accepted kufr since they are coming frequently or am I still a Muslim I say I believe and I do my actions but it feels like I have been psychologically destroyed by evil and have lost my way.
Can I be forgiven because even if I have fallen into kufr I want to continue to pray and have hope because I do want to come back to Allah. I want to repent to Allah and have my iman back that's all
Last edited by TheLostSoul; 06-04-2016 at 03:32 AM.
My problem is I don't know if it is me or not. I have literally broken down my iman feels lost because now I am saying kufr 24/7 and this is the problem what is my status with Allah what am I to him a Muslim or a Muslim that fell into kufr. I tried combating the kufr thoughts all night but now they come to me like it is from me I said astagfrulah but I feel like I have truly failed Allah. My mind does agree though that Allah created this world so yeh. I know I sound annoying but this is my problem have I accepted kufr since they are coming frequently or am I still a Muslim I say I believe and I do my actions but it feels like I have been psychologically destroyed by evil and have lost my way.
Can I be forgiven because even if I have fallen into kufr I want to continue to pray and have hope because I do want to come back to Allah. I want to repent to Allah and have my iman back that's all
You got some battle going on there inside of you. For what it's worth, I commend you for the fight you're putting up.
Don't ever worry about getting Allah's forgiveness. Check out the following thread. It'll tell you why in a bunch of different ways.
Obviously the fact that these thoughts are causing such distress in you is proof of your sincerity in faith. If you were truly a kafir, you would have no problem thinking thoughts such as the ones that you have.
I have 0 respect for myself I am just a low degenerate who disrespected his creator. People always saw me as a guy with a big smile and very talkative and happy. However now I always get reminded that I am just a failure who has no emotion anymore I don't smile or laugh anymore and don't even socialise. I guess you could call me a ghost lol but I won't give up cause I still have something redeemable and I could become a better Muslim who knows. Also this is just me venting out some frustration sorry
Last edited by TheLostSoul; 06-04-2016 at 09:03 PM.
I don't think having this attitude will cure me. So I should act happy and positive instead of negativity.
Yes, be happy and stay positive. The Prophet is basically telling you that - in relation to yoursituation - in the following hadith.
Abu Hurairah () said:
His () companion came to him and said; "Messenger of Allah! We have thoughts which we cannot dare talk about and we do not like that we have them or talk about them." He () said: "Have you experienced that?" They replied: "Yes." He () said: "That is clear faith."
Salaam and Ramadan Mubarak I have a question since it is Ramadan am I sinful for kufr thoughts and evil thoughts and doubts that come in my head repeatedly basically stuff that is already happening to me
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