Hi there... I don't know... I'm just wondering... around... You know...? This might sound embarassing but I feel bad... I mean... I feel like ME? Do you get IT? Ha ha. I sometimes think that why the hell does it have to be that Saitan should be casted unto the Hell Fire in the first place and all of the you know what needs to happen like my Aunt Jean who died as a Christian needs to be sent to hell just for something she doesn't know and I don't want to say this but she just grew up with a simple family that are Christians in a Christian dominated place and how the hell could she be a Muslim if she was used to that? Do you understand? I know that my mother converted but it didn't became enough reason for her to convert too... Sad. And now I don't know... I was just smoking and reflecting at the same time this night and looking at the stars... Wondering what the hell this life is all about... I'm really sick of everything! All the LIES... I'm truly angry... I'm sorry... Filled with resent and hate against everything... As I have posted on older posts, I had this Paralyzation... Panic Attack... Confined in bed for 1 year and 3 months... It happened 3 times in my life which those 3 times are full blown... The others are just small and medium episodes which really hurt my head... Wew...
I'm ranting... Ha ha. Forgive me... Allah knows my heart... Maybe I have a heart of a girl... Sorry... Ha ha... Sorry... I'm Scorpio... I don't know if you believe in Zodiacs but I sorta observed that what I've read about myself is true... And also, astrologist say that. Blah blah blah... I'm thinking of the word FREEDOM... Why is it that I am a slave? And the whole world around me doesn't UNDERSTAND me...? Yeah... Anyways... I feel sympathetic to my sister who is treated like a helper in the house... His real father is now engaged to another woman and also my other older bro which is that father's son... The first kid's pops had a motorcycle accident... May the King grant him mercy... We're 8 in the house... My sister, the one I'm talking about is Lesbian... In the past she prays but now I think she's just wandering around... But time will come... Truth shall prevail... I hope... I want to create a band... I know it's kinda metal and I wrote some afterwards I got my illness... On separate periods of time... Some songs are just buried deep inside my skull that I'm still thinking if I want to sing it later on... But what the heck, at least the ones I will are all TEN I guess... And my sister's name is Tin Tin or Aisha with Kristine as the first name. She's already 28 and will be having her birthday on May 10(I hope I'm correct). I want to FREE her... Do you get it? Even if my songs are somehow wicked... I just want to live life to it's maximum potential... Am I lost? Am I still finding myself?
Yeah, yeah, yeah... Whatever...
Inshaallah... Time will come... I was born on November the Fifth. Allahuakbar...
I'm just wondering where these ghosts come from. I know that children don't go to hell even the polytheists', but why? They're here! I can hear them? Is that they cam from hell, someone took them out? Because all souls in Islam go to the after life, right, either heaven or hell, not lurk around on earth? What does these faces mean then? Did it came from heaven? Hell? Where? Hm... What does this mean? The ghosts I'm pertaining to about are little girls and some boys. How did this happen?
Have you met a doctor? If you hear voices and feel yourself depressed/panic/want to make suicide, you might be better to ask some professional help. Posting to FB or forums isn´t same than talk about those feelings with some other person, like with doctor.
I'm just wondering where these ghosts come from. I know that children don't go to hell even the polytheists', but why? They're here! I can hear them? Is that they cam from hell, someone took them out? Because all souls in Islam go to the after life, right, either heaven or hell, not lurk around on earth? What does these faces mean then? Did it came from heaven? Hell? Where? Hm... What does this mean? The ghosts I'm pertaining to about are little girls and some boys. How did this happen?
Sahih International: O children of Adam, let not Satan tempt you as he removed your parents from Paradise, stripping them of their clothing to show them their private parts. Indeed, he sees you, he and his tribe, from where you do not see them. Indeed, We have made the devils allies to those who do not believe.
Pickthall: O Children of Adam! Let not Satan seduce you as he caused your (first) parents to go forth from the Garden and tore off from them their robe (of innocence) that he might manifest their shame to them. Lo! he seeth you, he and his tribe, from whence ye see him not. Lo! We have made the devils protecting friends for those who believe not.
...also i made a spelling mistake in my previous post.
...prompts.. sorry.
To answer your post..
You leavin the bloody door open thats why!
Dont open it in the first place!
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...keep of the grass.
Advice of the hyprocite.. who has heard better from people far younger.
Girls...boys..
When the voices change and the words stay the same..
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