Today I have prayed all 5 daily prayers, the problem is that Dawn prayer is 5 and something AM, and I have woke up by mistake after the Calling has been made and I felt really tired and sleepy but still I prayed, even after I came back from school.

Today O have told my Christian mom: "I wish I wanna die because it is hard this life, because it's hard to pray x5 a day". And she told me that I don't have to pray x5 a day but x2, and I told her that I cannot do that because it is sinful.

The reason I said this because it is hard to pray x5 regulate and a person once entered in Gardens, then he won't need anymore to pray, he can even not pray there and still I hope and wish for Paradise.

Does what I said entails disbelief? I'm really scared about it.