Transition?'s Ramadhan Diary 2008

Hello Everyone,

I plan on making this my very first Ramadhan in which I actually fast and pray InshaAllah my very first true Ramadhan. This year, I will finally have to face my fears and go to the mosque after all this time. As much as I am nervous about going back to my mosque, I'm nervous about keeping my prayers and fasting up. I want this to be my turning point. InshaAllah. Psychology wise, it takes 27 days to make a habit, so ideally every good habit I make this month should stick with me. That's the beauty of Ramadhan. It's more than 27 days, perfect time and atmosphere to make those changes. :statisfie

Time is starting to weigh down. I'm getting really excited. It's going be a challenge balancing all my new goals and daily work. But a reminder to myself and others, that as we get caught up talking to our Muslim brothers and sisters about Ramadhan, Allah (swt) is the Best Helper and Listens and Watches everything, it's important to REMEMBER ALLAH (swt). :thumbs_up

Here's some threads to look at:
http://www.islamicboard.com/fasting-ramadhan-eid-ul-fitr/4862-ramadan-goals.html
http://www.islamicboard.com/general/134270541-why-ramadan.html

My Allah Help you hold fast to your good intentions!

manaal said:

My Allah Help you hold fast to your good intentions!

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JazakAllah khair!
May Allah (swt) Guide Us all on the Straight Path and Allow us to increase our imaan this Ramadan!


Sister Transition

It has only been a couple of hours since I last wrote, but I'm starting to fidget out of nervous excitement. I've never been this excited but nor have I been this nervous about Ramadan. I'm soooooooo nervous about getting my prayers done, or done on time. It's funny how one moment I feel like I can fight in war as Jihad and then a couple hours later, I have a hard time focusing. An hour ago, I suddenly got tired/bored and was tempted to watch a movie potentially dangerous to my imaan. It's in those truly difficult moments, where I usually lose. It's those same moments, years ago, when I first started accepting Islam wholly , I would give up on fasts and eat. After that, I just never continued to fast. But this year, I'm going to fast. A part of preparation for Ramadan, or life, is mental preparation. Gaining knowledge and surrounding yourself with knowledge that will inspire you to change paths back on to the righteous path during moments of temptation. To be honest, I'm truly nervous about trusting myself to do the right thing. But I find peace knowing Allah (swt) is with us every moment. I find peace that Allah (Swt) listens to our du'as in which we ask for help and guidance. Allah (swt) is the Best Helper and He Guides those who He choose to guide. :thumbs_up
InshaAllah, Allah (swt) Will Guide us all in the Righteous Path.

Ramadhan Kareem!!!

Good work...

transition? said:

It has only been a couple of hours since I last wrote, but I'm starting to fidget out of nervous excitement. I've never been this excited but nor have I been this nervous about Ramadan. I'm soooooooo nervous about getting my prayers done, or done on time. It's funny how one moment I feel like I can fight in war as Jihad and then a couple hours later, I have a hard time focusing. An hour ago, I suddenly got tired/bored and was tempted to watch a movie potentially dangerous to my imaan. It's in those truly difficult moments, where I usually lose. It's those same moments, years ago, when I first started accepting Islam wholly , I would give up on fasts and eat. After that, I just never continued to fast. But this year, I'm going to fast. A part of preparation for Ramadan, or life, is mental preparation. Gaining knowledge and surrounding yourself with knowledge that will inspire you to change paths back on to the righteous path during moments of temptation. To be honest, I'm truly nervous about trusting myself to do the right thing. But I find peace knowing Allah (swt) is with us every moment. I find peace that Allah (Swt) listens to our du'as in which we ask for help and guidance. Allah (swt) is the Best Helper and He Guides those who He choose to guide. :thumbs_up
InshaAllah, Allah (swt) Will Guide us all in the Righteous Path.

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Sis ive been a practicing Muslim my whole life Alhamduliah but i still have moments..we all do

yes sometimes i feel like im ready for death then a lil while later i dnt even believe i have a chance in going to heaven

ive never been so excited about Ramadan either,Alhamdulialh,ALLAH (SWA) has filled my heart with lovefor Islam,ALLAH (SWA) and Prophet Muhammed (saw)..never stop making Dua,because Walahi its great

but MashALLAH you sound ready




MashALLAH..you

ayan333 said:

Sis ive been a practicing Muslim my whole life Alhamduliah but i still have moments..we all do

yes sometimes i feel like im ready for death then a lil while later i dnt even believe i have a chance in going to heaven

ive never been so excited about Ramadan either,Alhamdulialh,ALLAH (SWA) has filled my heart with lovefor Islam,ALLAH (SWA) and Prophet Muhammed (saw)..never stop making Dua,because Walahi its great

but MashALLAH you sound ready




MashALLAH..you

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Lol, I may sound ready, but I hope I am ready when time comes to show. lol.
I see you're from Atlanta, going mosque hopping around Atlanta, seeing we have so many branches and mosques? :-[

InshaAllah! May Allah (swt) Bless you Strong iman/faith this Ramadan and the time to come!

I didn't expect Ramadan to be easy. I didn't expect my family to be any nicer. I didn't expect my mom to stop shouting curses when she got angry. Considering I live with such nonreligious people in a nonreligious city, I didn't expect anything to change. I didn't expect the same Muslims I've known for the past 6 to 7 years, doing around the same things to change. My responsibility and ability to change things for people stops where they have to pick up. I "Leave people to their Creator. And if they never pick, then it's their own choice. But no matter what, I expected my own attitude and habits to pick up. , I never expected the world around me one day to adjust to Islam or Ramadan, but I did expect my own adjustment. That's probably the most difficult part about changing is trying to change when the world isn't. BUT... Allâh is sufficient for us and He is the best disposer of affairs....(Qur'an 3: 173)

I've had a difficult first day of Ramadan. It is difficult dealing with others who wish to continue being rude and sinning, while you try to keep your own fast. The only strategy I can think of is perseverance.

I had some very big goals and changes to make. I guess I didn't realize that I couldn't just wake up one day (even if it is the first day of ramadan) and change just like that. :exhausted

There's something about the Holy Month that make people change their behavior... even i was very patient with my son the past two nigts when he refused to sleep. Normally I get really mad at him, this time Masha Allah, I controlled it!

manaal said:

There's something about the Holy Month that make people change their behavior... even i was very patient with my son the past two nigts when he refused to sleep. Normally I get really mad at him, this time Masha Allah, I controlled it!

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MashAllah! that's great! My old Sunday school teacher used to say that Shaitan was locked up during Ramadan, so everything we did in Ramadan was part of our true character!

Ramadan is less or more okay. It's amazing how moments of faith fluctuates during the day too! I've been really worried about college applications. It's absolutely ruining my focus and attitude. I'm thinking of praying Istikarah when I get a chance. My mom won't let me go to Taraveeh during school nights, but I'm going this Friday! :-[ Really excited.

Nighty night folks.

This here chica is going to sleep so she can wake up early.
I'm really happy. I know I can't change the past, but I'm really optimistic about the future.

transition? said:

Nighty night folks.

This here chica is going to sleep so she can wake up early.
I'm really happy. I know I can't change the past, but I'm really optimistic about the future.

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Ramadan is truly special, and I'm glad to see that you're so passionate about it!

faizan786 said:

Ramadan is truly special, and I'm glad to see that you're so passionate about it!

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I concur, brother.

I'm pretty sure there's already a Ramadan diary thread going around, lol. But feel free to post here.

Progress: slow. Well it seems slow because many of my Ramadan goal are tiny. :-[. Example: brushing my teeth before prayer, and keeping my room/house cleaner, not procrastinating, keeping organized so my mind works clearer and I can focus on using my free time properly.

Today was quite the dilemma. This evening, I had to make the decision on something small. But in my mind, I sensed that even though it wasn't haram, it could eventually lead to sin. However, not doing it might have been rude. InshaAllah, I hope the choice I made was right. May Allah (swt) Guide Us to the Right Path. Whatever happens next I must be extra extra careful.
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SubhanAllah! I also learned something new about Sunnah prayers! I'm really surprised that I was never taught it before!

:statisfie This day hasn't turned out perfectly. But this world isn't perfect! Only Jannah is. I plan on stepping it up a notch this coming week. The most difficult tasks have been understanding or memorizing Quran and time management of all these new goals.

But the cutest thing ever, my little brother is learning small Surahs and every time he is reading/memorizing, he tells me to please to shush because "he's doing bismillah!" He's so young, but incredible. MashAllah! Even though he is four, he still follows you when you pray, and when you leave he pretends to do it by himself, making sujud and rukuh. It's so adorable.

Today was oifdsfiiurhefd. I'm so tired.

:exhausted I'm having a very hard time concentrating at jamat at the mosque. So many distractions! lol. little kids <3 gotta love them.

I need a living role model.


One of those days, when you realize the true meaning of perseverance.
Lol, you can kind of see the up and down situations/moods I've had in the past week. Faiths wears out like a sleeve.

Blessings and peace be with you transition;

Today was oifdsfiiurhefd. I'm so tired.

I need a living role model.

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You are becoming that role model to your little brother

In the spirit of struggling through one more day.

Eric