Things Happened Today , I know Alot of things happened Today( Snakelegs )
So here it Goes - 09-09-2008
I am just Me, Searching For a place To practise My Deen Fully but that seems impossible Here , Its Sooo Hard to live here
Soo My Brother Whos 27 , 10 years Older than me , not praying , not fastin , Not Practising, But A Muslim, He has Bad Friends and thats Normal cause there is alots of bad people here Thats Why I have to get out of here Quickly to practice my deen in peace inshaAllah.
anyway Finnaly after years of struggle He found a nice Job , where He has a Nice Loan and They Gave Him a New Contract a couple of days ago and he was Happy with his job , He everyday Comes Home Early To sleep and Wake up early to go to his job but..... Since Yesterday He didnt Came home And still Isnt......
My Mom is always Soo scared that something Will Happen To His Children ( A Mother Feeling?) But She is Now More Affraid To lose one of us Since The Death Of my father five years Ago , She Cried the Whole Day and I couldnt Take That Cry , I even Yelled at her "Have Patience!!!"
she Already Had That Taught.... That Worst Taught ....He was Death !
So I couldnt Take it anymore , I went Upstairs And Prayed Salaatul-Asr and Read a Surah Of the Quran And Made Dua So Hard With Tears rolling out of my eyes . "Why Always Me , Why is all the Bad Happening to ME , I wanna Be Servant of Allah And Practise My Deen In Peace And Happiness But I cant Practise Fully, All Alone ,No one To support Me ,No One To Stand Next To Me , And Let Alone having Peace and Happiness With Practisin I Guess It was not meant For me , I always Wondered when will my Real Trial come But Now I Notice That This I probably My Trial That Allah Has Put Me to
This Is The One I have To overcome "
Anyway Back to my Tears , I Almost Lost Hope Cause I was Affraid That I did Something Bad That Allah Wont Accept My Dua Anymore Cause Normally Most Of the Time I Ask Allah For Help, He Helps Me Immediately Alhamdullah
But I was affraid, I Am One Who Never gets into Big Sins InshaAllah and Alhamdullah But still I was Affraid Cause Maybe I was Doing Something Wrong Without Noticing. Maybe I was Getting Into Big Sins Without Noticing But Then This Verses Came to my mind , I guess everyone Knows this Verses , The Verses....
Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
Verily, with every difficulty there is relief. Qur'an 94:5-6
And This Verse.. SubhanAllah
"O you who believe! Seek help in patience and As-Salat (prayer). Truly Allah is with the patient." (Al-Baqarah: 153)
This Verses Kept Me strong , So the Taught of Him Bein Death And Miseries That will come like five years ago... Was little Gone , I trusted Allah , I Said something like this " Please My Lord Help me , Im Tryin To be your Servant , But Why Is Al this Misery Coming To ME!! Its Making Me Life Extremely Diffucult, Soo Please My Lord Help Me , save Me From This Misery !"
I then Noticed That My Sabr Was Restored A little , So My Trust For Allah Was Getting Stronger...
it Was Iftar My mom Couldnt Get Food To His Throat Cause Of Worries about My Brother, and With My Patience I ate my Food And Prayed Maghrib And Made Dua again...
Its Been more than 24hours Since he didnt Come home...
And Suddenly an Idea Came To my Mind where he could Be ...........He Is in Jail, man !!!!
I was Preparing For Goin to Taraweeh With The Father Of My Friend!! Not with my friend himself but His Father!!! So My mom told him to also Go to the Police station to ask , So we Went There and Ask Them ABout My Brother.....And Yes Indeed...... He Was Arrested !!
They Didnt Tell Me What He did But They Think he Will Stay There For a Couple Days or somethin,
But I have An idea What It Could Be ....Ofcourse ......Drugzdealing!!....Wich is a Very Popular "Job" In My Town..
Darn They Making Me Soo Angry!!!:raging: I just Wanna Shoot them all But NO Im Patient Cause "Truly Allah is With The Patient":statisfie
But It Made My Happy That He is In Jail , Im Very Happy That Nothing Happened To Him And I knw He Would Get His Punishment For Not Prayiing,Fasting, And Plus Doing Some Awful Sins I Knw He would Get His Punishment For That But My Greatest Fear Was His Death ,Ive Losted 4 family members in 5 years , So we met Enough Death , But My Most Concern Was My Mother To see her suffer again Like This, But Allah Is GREAT Soooooooo GREAT!!!!!! Allahu AKbar!!
now He should think In There And Learn His Lesson And Why Hes Doin Such Stupidity While hes Got A Nice New Job! Probably His Job Will Be Gone And It Would Be a extremely Difficult Task To Find Such A Job Again , Very Foolish
Soo I came Home After Taraweeh , And Made My Mom A Little Happy :statisfie
Now She can Rest and Eat In Ease
What I learned and Gained Today Was: NEVER lose hope on Allah !!, (SubhanAllah That Sentence Made Me Emotional Again) Trust Allah Cause He Is The One You Can Only Trust Ask Allah For Help Cause NOBODY can Help you except Allah And Be Patient cause TRULY Allah is With The Patient
What I gained Is A New Level Of Love For Allah , I Love Him Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH , InshaAllah I will LIVE For Allah , And DIE for Allah Cause Hes My only hope , my only Light, my only choice , my only way , To lead me to the Happines, The Feeling , The Succes That Ive Been Searchin For my Whole Life.......
Things Happened Today , I know Alot of things happened Today( Snakelegs )
So here it Goes - 09-09-2008
I am just Me, Searching For a place To practise My Deen Fully but that seems impossible Here , Its Sooo Hard to live here
Soo My Brother Whos 27 , 10 years Older than me , not praying , not fastin , Not Practising, But A Muslim, He has Bad Friends and thats Normal cause there is alots of bad people here Thats Why I have to get out of here Quickly to practice my deen in peace inshaAllah.
anyway Finnaly after years of struggle He found a nice Job , where He has a Nice Loan and They Gave Him a New Contract a couple of days ago and he was Happy with his job , He everyday Comes Home Early To sleep and Wake up early to go to his job but..... Since Yesterday He didnt Came home And still Isnt......
My Mom is always Soo scared that something Will Happen To His Children ( A Mother Feeling?) But She is Now More Affraid To lose one of us Since The Death Of my father five years Ago , She Cried the Whole Day and I couldnt Take That Cry , I even Yelled at her "Have Patience!!!"
she Already Had That Taught.... That Worst Taught ....He was Death !
So I couldnt Take it anymore , I went Upstairs And Prayed Salaatul-Asr and Read a Surah Of the Quran And Made Dua So Hard With Tears rolling out of my eyes . "Why Always Me , Why is all the Bad Happening to ME , I wanna Be Servant of Allah And Practise My Deen In Peace And Happiness But I cant Practise Fully, All Alone ,No one To support Me ,No One To Stand Next To Me , And Let Alone having Peace and Happiness With Practisin I Guess It was not meant For me , I always Wondered when will my Real Trial come But Now I Notice That This I probably My Trial That Allah Has Put Me to
This Is The One I have To overcome "
Anyway Back to my Tears , I Almost Lost Hope Cause I was Affraid That I did Something Bad That Allah Wont Accept My Dua Anymore Cause Normally Most Of the Time I Ask Allah For Help, He Helps Me Immediately Alhamdullah
But I was affraid, I Am One Who Never gets into Big Sins InshaAllah and Alhamdullah But still I was Affraid Cause Maybe I was Doing Something Wrong Without Noticing. Maybe I was Getting Into Big Sins Without Noticing But Then This Verses Came to my mind , I guess everyone Knows this Verses , The Verses....
Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
Verily, with every difficulty there is relief. Qur'an 94:5-6
And This Verse.. SubhanAllah
"O you who believe! Seek help in patience and As-Salat (prayer). Truly Allah is with the patient." (Al-Baqarah: 153)
This Verses Kept Me strong , So the Taught of Him Bein Death And Miseries That will come like five years ago... Was little Gone , I trusted Allah , I Said something like this " Please My Lord Help me , Im Tryin To be your Servant , But Why Is Al this Misery Coming To ME!! Its Making Me Life Extremely Diffucult, Soo Please My Lord Help Me , save Me From This Misery !"
I then Noticed That My Sabr Was Restored A little , So My Trust For Allah Was Getting Stronger...
it Was Iftar My mom Couldnt Get Food To His Throat Cause Of Worries about My Brother, and With My Patience I ate my Food And Prayed Maghrib And Made Dua again...
Its Been more than 24hours Since he didnt Come home...
And Suddenly an Idea Came To my Mind where he could Be ...........He Is in Jail, man !!!!
I was Preparing For Goin to Taraweeh With The Father Of My Friend!! Not with my friend himself but His Father!!! So My mom told him to also Go to the Police station to ask , So we Went There and Ask Them ABout My Brother.....And Yes Indeed...... He Was Arrested !!
They Didnt Tell Me What He did But They Think he Will Stay There For a Couple Days or somethin,
But I have An idea What It Could Be ....Ofcourse ......Drugzdealing!!....Wich is a Very Popular "Job" In My Town..
Darn They Making Me Soo Angry!!!:raging: I just Wanna Shoot them all But NO Im Patient Cause "Truly Allah is With The Patient":statisfie
But It Made My Happy That He is In Jail , Im Very Happy That Nothing Happened To Him And I knw He Would Get His Punishment For Not Prayiing,Fasting, And Plus Doing Some Awful Sins I Knw He would Get His Punishment For That But My Greatest Fear Was His Death ,Ive Losted 4 family members in 5 years , So we met Enough Death , But My Most Concern Was My Mother To see her suffer again Like This, But Allah Is GREAT Soooooooo GREAT!!!!!! Allahu AKbar!!
now He should think In There And Learn His Lesson And Why Hes Doin Such Stupidity While hes Got A Nice New Job! Probably His Job Will Be Gone And It Would Be a extremely Difficult Task To Find Such A Job Again , Very Foolish
Soo I came Home After Taraweeh , And Made My Mom A Little Happy :statisfie
Now She can Rest and Eat In Ease
What I learned and Gained Today Was: NEVER lose hope on Allah !!, (SubhanAllah That Sentence Made Me Emotional Again) Trust Allah Cause He Is The One You Can Only Trust Ask Allah For Help Cause NOBODY can Help you except Allah And Be Patient cause TRULY Allah is With The Patient
What I gained Is A New Level Of Love For Allah , I Love Him Soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH , InshaAllah I will LIVE For Allah , And DIE for Allah Cause Hes My only hope , my only Light, my only choice , my only way , To lead me to the Happines, The Feeling , The Succes That Ive Been Searchin For my Whole Life.......
Asalam aliakum brother,
JazakAllah for sharing your touching story. I hope your brother will learn from you and your strength and change his life for the better.
Your deen is amazing and your a good son, inshAllah your brother will realize how his life is hurting your Mother and renew his faith.
SubhanAllah , Thats Soo True , Allah Is alway by our Side :statisfie
And this was a real story, With Feelings I made This Story
Soo What You Guys Talking About More more Stories LOL
Maybe if I Witness or experience Something
Now That You Mention it
Our Taraweeh Prayer Wich some Boys Stay outside And Disturbing The Prayer With Their Loud conversations , Does Realy Make Me Angry :raging:
Masha'Allah bro', that story was so emotional, like one time you're talking about him getting a new job which is and then all this crying, making dua etc. and then it's and then he gets out of jail again and we're like . That post showed so much of your personality and it shows what a great guy you really are...
Insha'Allah he will learn from his mistake, and may Allah keep you steadfast in your religion.
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