I don't know how to deal with this...ive been abused by my family in many ways..I mean oppression civil rights etc.
I live in the US and they are from Pakistan but when I hit my 20's they just got weird/crazy and have done terrible things to me. NO one has helped me out...ive gone to people trying ot get help and its like everyone turns away from me. im a female...who lives alone..and everyone seems to be glad im in a bad position. my family is very controlling and weird and they are only like this with ME...not with anyone else or my siblings and im the oldest.
its getting bad now and they won't stop their abuse...they have even done illegal things to me...such as fraud or other things. They have stolen 10,000 from me and put me in debt too. They will not stop their abuse and its weird that everyone just literally turns to my mother and even helps her out with this abuse?
im a GOOD muslim pious and im shocked that no one will help me out...and because no one has its like I stay stuck in the gutter...I have no friends and no one and its just a weird reality. I only have my family to turn to and they are my worst enemies and they try to control and belittle and abuse me in different ways. They all seem to enjoy oppressing me and im strongly against any kind of abuse or bullying...and I would defend ANYONE yet its weird that NO ONE has helped me out. even family friends have just ignored me or ran back to my mother to tell her. No one even calls me or tries to be friends with me...its weird they call my mother and they're all friends with her??? though she is one of my biggest enemies....I have still remained KIND to my family despite their non-stop abuse....and they will assist in financially supporting me a little bit.
I have tried to convine them to help me get married...because of course it would be a great thing for me but they have done nothing to help me and my mother doesn't want me to get married...my mother is like a shaytan...she is SO evil it's shocking the evil things she has done to me and my life. these people pray five times a day...and are nice to others yet they have abused me horribly. my sister is even a prominent person and has done all kinds of charity work. I have prayed to God to please help me for 12 years now...assist in helping me get out of this situation but nothing happens...it's weird as if my abusers are given all this POWER and more good happens to them while more bad keeps happening to me. even meeting someone would help me tremendously yet I cant meet anyone to get married to. I don't know what to do and where to get help from. I am alone and it feels as if even God won't help me.
I don't understand WHY all of these people have been allowed to do all these terrible things to me..and my life. I have been through so much trauma it's ridiculous...I mean SO much suffering trauma at the hands of those who have oppressed me. and I don't know why they are doing this to ME when I am such a good person and strong good female. even family friends have assisted my mother and parents in doing terrible things to my life....its been a shocking surreal experience, and for me I want toget justice but I am SO scared b/c I am totally alone.... I don't understand why God has allowed SO many people to do SO MANY bad things to ONE INNOCENT woman??? it's crazy..it defies anything ive ever heard of in my life.... I have prayed and prayed to God to please help me...but I feel I get no help just more evil weird people come into my life.
Everyone that comes into my life does similar to me..tries to control or oppress me or just doesn't treat me well. I treat EVERYONE good and respect everyone...this paradox is so strange to me...why someone as good as me who does only good, is getting all this abuse and mistreatment on this major level. I used to think I was a saint or something for having to go through this much suffering... if I told my whole story it would be so extreme people couldn't bear it..... I have had to survive all of this totally ALONE...with no friends no spouse nothing and people just drop out of my life like flies... no one stays no one is my friend...I have ZERO friends in the world except for all my abusers/enemies/family and they continue to have morew and more power to control abuse oppress me. I just pray to God to give me strength against my abusers....give me SOMEONE one person..a friend a husband anything but I get nothing but more loneliness and abuse..... it is so bad that even a healer said no one could have survived what ive been through.
I am educated, smart, attractive, a good muslim and have many things going for me but only these bad things keep happening to me. I don't know how to deal with my family situation b/c everyone has brainwashed me into feeling BAD for hating my family but they have committed evils against me...I am so STRONGLY against evil....its a shame that I am the ONE being victimized to these extremes. iw ant justice/vengeance of course ie going to court and suing but I was so scared b/c ive been through SO much trauma....why would God allow this much abuse to ONE good female??
I don't get it...I grew up the same as my brother/sister everyone I knew. only good things have happened to others while my life has been this tragic hell.... and it just doesn't change....I don't know where to get support from and when I tell people my story they all turn away from me too..no one will help me....its just so crazy I don't know what to make of it....
I live in the US and they are from Pakistan but when I hit my 20's they just got weird/crazy and have done terrible things to me. NO one has helped me out...ive gone to people trying ot get help and its like everyone turns away from me. im a female...who lives alone..and everyone seems to be glad im in a bad position. my family is very controlling and weird and they are only like this with ME...not with anyone else or my siblings and im the oldest.
its getting bad now and they won't stop their abuse...they have even done illegal things to me...such as fraud or other things. They have stolen 10,000 from me and put me in debt too. They will not stop their abuse and its weird that everyone just literally turns to my mother and even helps her out with this abuse?
im a GOOD muslim pious and im shocked that no one will help me out...and because no one has its like I stay stuck in the gutter...I have no friends and no one and its just a weird reality. I only have my family to turn to and they are my worst enemies and they try to control and belittle and abuse me in different ways. They all seem to enjoy oppressing me and im strongly against any kind of abuse or bullying...and I would defend ANYONE yet its weird that NO ONE has helped me out. even family friends have just ignored me or ran back to my mother to tell her. No one even calls me or tries to be friends with me...its weird they call my mother and they're all friends with her??? though she is one of my biggest enemies....I have still remained KIND to my family despite their non-stop abuse....and they will assist in financially supporting me a little bit.
I have tried to convine them to help me get married...because of course it would be a great thing for me but they have done nothing to help me and my mother doesn't want me to get married...my mother is like a shaytan...she is SO evil it's shocking the evil things she has done to me and my life. these people pray five times a day...and are nice to others yet they have abused me horribly. my sister is even a prominent person and has done all kinds of charity work. I have prayed to God to please help me for 12 years now...assist in helping me get out of this situation but nothing happens...it's weird as if my abusers are given all this POWER and more good happens to them while more bad keeps happening to me. even meeting someone would help me tremendously yet I cant meet anyone to get married to. I don't know what to do and where to get help from. I am alone and it feels as if even God won't help me.
I don't understand WHY all of these people have been allowed to do all these terrible things to me..and my life. I have been through so much trauma it's ridiculous...I mean SO much suffering trauma at the hands of those who have oppressed me. and I don't know why they are doing this to ME when I am such a good person and strong good female. even family friends have assisted my mother and parents in doing terrible things to my life....its been a shocking surreal experience, and for me I want toget justice but I am SO scared b/c I am totally alone.... I don't understand why God has allowed SO many people to do SO MANY bad things to ONE INNOCENT woman??? it's crazy..it defies anything ive ever heard of in my life.... I have prayed and prayed to God to please help me...but I feel I get no help just more evil weird people come into my life.
Everyone that comes into my life does similar to me..tries to control or oppress me or just doesn't treat me well. I treat EVERYONE good and respect everyone...this paradox is so strange to me...why someone as good as me who does only good, is getting all this abuse and mistreatment on this major level. I used to think I was a saint or something for having to go through this much suffering... if I told my whole story it would be so extreme people couldn't bear it..... I have had to survive all of this totally ALONE...with no friends no spouse nothing and people just drop out of my life like flies... no one stays no one is my friend...I have ZERO friends in the world except for all my abusers/enemies/family and they continue to have morew and more power to control abuse oppress me. I just pray to God to give me strength against my abusers....give me SOMEONE one person..a friend a husband anything but I get nothing but more loneliness and abuse..... it is so bad that even a healer said no one could have survived what ive been through.
I am educated, smart, attractive, a good muslim and have many things going for me but only these bad things keep happening to me. I don't know how to deal with my family situation b/c everyone has brainwashed me into feeling BAD for hating my family but they have committed evils against me...I am so STRONGLY against evil....its a shame that I am the ONE being victimized to these extremes. iw ant justice/vengeance of course ie going to court and suing but I was so scared b/c ive been through SO much trauma....why would God allow this much abuse to ONE good female??
I don't get it...I grew up the same as my brother/sister everyone I knew. only good things have happened to others while my life has been this tragic hell.... and it just doesn't change....I don't know where to get support from and when I tell people my story they all turn away from me too..no one will help me....its just so crazy I don't know what to make of it....
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