Brother, the life of a believer is filled with trials, and tribulations.
We believe - right? We will be tested at every single stage, Allah aza wa jal tests HIS servants many many times each day. The brothers in the masjid are (as someone said) reflective of the times we are living in... but that doesn't mean that all Muslims in the modern age are "of the modern age", no bro, not at all... some of us feel we'd be better off living in the times of past ages - like me, like you, and like many others here on this forum - but We've been placed in this "time" for a reason. We are witnesses to the time we live in.
Consider my words brother. You know all too well, that living a life without moral inclinations and due consideration for what it means to be a Muslim, is a life of absolutely no spiritual benefit.
And you have a lot inside of you which is good, and vigilant against the self. And that is a remarkably good thing in this, the modern age, where hypocrisy is rife.
When you go to the masjid, you go in the hope that you will be in the house of Allah, worshipping HIM and remembering HIM in the best of places on the earth. No Masjid is built on grounds which ar unclean, Allah ensures that every building that is converted into a masjid (or every masjid that is built) is on purified grounds.
Your own personal struggle is reflective of mine, I see brothers who will not just talk, but play videos on their mobile phones and then giggle away with their little sad crew. It used to make me angry, and I used to have my words with them - sometimes they listened - other times they laughed at me (as if to say "you aint my father") - sad state of affairs right?
I remember these times all too well.
Don't give in bro, you know I think highly of you and admire your honesty - and I know it's not easy to be vigilant against the "self", it's a lifelong struggle. But you
are struggling in the path and that is what we are supposed to do; your faith, like all of ours here, is tested brother - you're just a little more vocal about it, because you want clarification here from us - so I am giving it to you.
I wonder if you've ever seen the Muezzin give Adhaan? He usually puts two fingers in his ears, so he can block out the noise and concentrate on his pitch and tone when giving the adhaan... that gave me an idea bro (and I'm gonna do this - thought you'd benefit from it too)... earplugs brother... they will give us a better concentration during our sunnah salaahs, and we won't be able to hear the nonsense in the rows behind us - believe me I'm kicking myself for not realising this sooner and will take a little walk to the chemist tomorrow in order to invest in a box of them.
We have options bro - ear plugs can do wonders.
To think, earplugs can save us from giving up. This small little invention :) Allah is merciful brother, HE always shows us a way, when it seems there is no other way :) Allahu Akbar, Alhamdulilllah.
Scimi