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First I want to start by asking why you have to post so many threads before becoming a full member? Also, I cant send private messages even though I receive them. I'm afraid that people might think I am rude for not responding.
Anyway the last two years that I have been in college have been a financial and emotional strain.I was hospitalized twice and both during finals. That brought my gpa down. Then my university had financial cutbacks and raised their prices while taking away a scholarship and grant. The surplus from my grants and scholarships (plus a loan I took out before Islam) is what I used to support myself since I am an independent student and my family cant help me at all (not even with a place to live). I'm working but not enough to pay the rent on the 1st of every month. Then Allah tested me again when I didn't get a job that would pay $11 an hour, $3 more than what I'm making now with more hours. I couldn't get it because training is during class time. Then my cellphone broke today and I didn't have enough money to replace it. So today I signed up for a interest based loan to help with rent until I find a second job and replace my cell and buy toiletries.
I felt so bad because I know that riba is the only sin that will make Allah and his prophet go to war against you. I don't want to go up against Allah in war because I know I will lose. I love Allah and his prophets. He brought me a gift (islam) that has been the only light in this bleak life I have had. I know I don't show it sometimes but I am nothing without him.
How have you dealt with riba? What are some things besides begging for forgiveness that will put me back in Allah's good graces? I plan on getting a second job and dropping down to part time next semester so the only money I will use will be from my grant. I would just get evicted because I really hate my apartment. The company has shady practices. They don't show you where you will actually live and its a glorified dorm room and really dirty and ugly. Plus they match you with any roommate. The one I have now just refuses to clean. But if I did get evicted it would mess up my credit and make it harder for me to find a new apartment.
Anyway the last two years that I have been in college have been a financial and emotional strain.I was hospitalized twice and both during finals. That brought my gpa down. Then my university had financial cutbacks and raised their prices while taking away a scholarship and grant. The surplus from my grants and scholarships (plus a loan I took out before Islam) is what I used to support myself since I am an independent student and my family cant help me at all (not even with a place to live). I'm working but not enough to pay the rent on the 1st of every month. Then Allah tested me again when I didn't get a job that would pay $11 an hour, $3 more than what I'm making now with more hours. I couldn't get it because training is during class time. Then my cellphone broke today and I didn't have enough money to replace it. So today I signed up for a interest based loan to help with rent until I find a second job and replace my cell and buy toiletries.
I felt so bad because I know that riba is the only sin that will make Allah and his prophet go to war against you. I don't want to go up against Allah in war because I know I will lose. I love Allah and his prophets. He brought me a gift (islam) that has been the only light in this bleak life I have had. I know I don't show it sometimes but I am nothing without him.
How have you dealt with riba? What are some things besides begging for forgiveness that will put me back in Allah's good graces? I plan on getting a second job and dropping down to part time next semester so the only money I will use will be from my grant. I would just get evicted because I really hate my apartment. The company has shady practices. They don't show you where you will actually live and its a glorified dorm room and really dirty and ugly. Plus they match you with any roommate. The one I have now just refuses to clean. But if I did get evicted it would mess up my credit and make it harder for me to find a new apartment.
