:bism: (In the Name of God, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful)
Thank you for sharing. :) I'm sorry to hear that other users haven't always been friendly, but I'd advise you to ignore negative voices. And besides, I remind you and myself that the Internet can be a very unfriendly place in general. Just as I advise myself sometimes to ignore negative voices, I'm advising you the same.
So, while I understand the importance of discipline, I don't think that new Muslims or individuals immersed in doubt like yourself should be advised on Islamic rules. That is because the heart has to first attach itself to the belief in a higher power and then belief in Prophet :saws:. For example, the culture of Arabia was saturated with a drinking culture in the early history of Prophet :saws:. However, once hearts had been prepared to accept existence of a higher power and then the divine message that his prophethood had embodied been receiving warm acceptance as well, then the moment the words of prohibition of alcohol passed the lips of Prophet :saws: and the news of the prohibition spread, the believers spit out the alcohol even if they'd been in the midst of consuming it. So, I think before understanding any type of rules or heaven or hell, we need to discuss the signs of existence of the higher power and why you should believe in the prophethood of Prophet :saws:.
I had been an atheist. So, I understand the value of Islam. And I think part of you does too, even if it's a small part, otherwise you wouldn't be here among us. So, take that as a positive sign.
If you want, I can discuss with you these matters on PM if you want to do so in private or I'm happy also to discuss matters with you in public if you want that. The choice is yours. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable or bad; there is no right or wrong in searching for answers, because the search in itself is important and hopefully one that enables us to travel on a journey of discovery that is fruitful and aligned with keeping sincerity on all sides.
Sincere Regards & Best Wishes,
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Khanali12
yeah I think you summarised it nicely, you are right, i think i'm finding it hard to let go, for example i was here a few months ago with some questions but some users on here weren't so friendly and i said to myself i am done with islam for good but yet... here i am.
also as the years have past I've been hating Islam more and more, for example whenever someone starts talking about Islam, 'this is haram' or 'do you want to go to hell/heaven' it really irritates me.
to answer your questions:
i'm not entirely convinced that there is a creator hence i'm not sure if Muhammad was really a prophet (also some actions he did i find questionable)