I am muslim but i recently turned back to Allah, but im not sure if Allah will forgive me, Ive always hated my appearance, i am ugly guy, and people made fun of me in school, and that made me have no self esteem,i am very shy person, but then I saw all other guys who are goodlooking and get girls easily, so i was always jealous, and i am thin and unhealthy, fighting my addictions, and one thing i used to hate and blame is that my parents used to force me to pray and not really take care of my health unless its something really serious, and my big brother ( i call him doggy ), he used to beat me up for no reason since childhood, and i was always stressed, which is why im what i am today, i was once very depressed and angry , and my parents always told me to pray like force me and I cursed muhammad, and i cursed namaz , i said the F word, now i regret so much , because i know what life really means now. and i wish god can forgive , i am trying to change and trying to complete 5 prayers a day, but i am worried if my prayers will be accepted. i feel very regretful to curse , i wish Allah will forgive me , ??