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iantot0617
You really can't control it.. i think i already have 7 episodes in being crazy.. 1st.. i stop the car in the middle of traffic lights and walk away leaving my car.. and when im near at my home i remove my clothes everything except my boxer shorts and walk home.. second i robbed a gasoline station but i hypnotized the saleslady and the security guard and walk away..and so on All i know that Allah is guiding me always to be safe. But after all that episodes i ask for forgiveness and thank Allah that im alive and nobody shot me while being crazy. we with disorders need to find the truth but 1st you need to control your emotions and forget bout people what they think of you.. you dont need them you need Allah swt.. just feel the inner heart and you'll be fine..forgive,be kind, and understand that Allah swt has purpose for us.. All of us has a purpose.. some with knowledge, some are without, some are good, some are bad..All we need is to realize and feel what Allah wants us to be.. i hope this will help you..
I understand where your coming from
i get delusional and start thinking i am the wife of jesus christ
or that I have given birth to prophet Muhammad
or that i remain close in contact with the angel of death....
its all my religious delusions
I play nun....
I found this at the islamqa.com
https://islamqa.info/en/191488 i better control myself im scard
because when I say words of kufr its from mania
compulsions in mania is kinda like looking at a piece of chocolete and trying to avoid eating it
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for all the momments in life where people call me sane after my religious delusions I get I feel like yellling
they cause more harm then good
we insane people are sick we dont understand so please dont expect us to act "normal" when we do our crimes...
like anger and stuff...
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my psychiatrist told me im in my own realm far far away but to come to down to earth I need to take those tablets...