Has Allah abandon me?

Please pray for me. I am in a struggle and my heart is heavy. For one year i have had many trials almost everyday in that year from several tire blow outs to accidents. Losing my jobs. Now me and my 3 little boys are homeless. I had to sell my car to get us hotel payments. I have no family that can help. I am only Muslim in my family. My hubby is in UAE. He does his best to care for us. I am out of money now and food. All i have is my phone. That im on. I have grown upset and chasing reasons as to why why why is Allah letting this happen. I have lost also a son in this year. And my best friend. My father and i have parted ways. But i miss him. Please someone help me. I have watched the youtube videos but i am still angry. My heaft is still troubled. Someone please help me talk to me. Please i am thinking of thoughts of just leaving my kids and doing the unthinkable bc i have them in this situation. My Nasir cries to me. But im so angry that i cant hear anything.

AlishaHayat; may Allah bless you with the strength,wisdom and the peace to get you through your struggles in life. Whatever may happen, never give up hope in Allah; often it is the only thing that helps us in times of extreme distress.

You are in my prayers;
Eric