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So I need help I am a 14 year old who is getting these thoughts.They started after Ramadan I started to get bad thoughts about Allāh like bad names after I had seen a post online which said a bad name towards Allāh I hated these and after any thought that was bad I would describe Allāh as it I hated it. Then I was in a re lesson at school and I had these thoughts which I cannot remember and I remember me in my bed having a panic attack over these thoughts I think one was like ‘doesn’t everyone believe there religion is right’ I hated this. I carried on thinking about this then after a while I started getting bad thoughts about Islam like shirk thoughts I had one which was before jummah and I felt like I believe that god didn’t exist except I raised my finger like in Salah and said la illaha illalah and I also got another one before going out and I did the same thing again then when I woke up another day I had a feeling I was non Muslim because of what I had done and another before Salah when I had a thought that I doubted hell and paradise I wanted to cry and be really worried but I can’t cry I want to cry really badly about this and be worried because I feel I am not a Muslim if I don’t cry or are worried about these thoughts I think this may be because I ask Allāh to put my mind at peace and help me or I may have a illness or I may believe this is just waswas and I don’t care please help me I really don’t want to go to hell I get shirk thoughts continuesly throughout my day I started to pray because of it but I need help I feel as if I have committed shirk please help in my dua I always ask for forgiveness but sometimes throughout my day I feel like I am a non Muslim I get these shirk thoughts but I don’t realize till after when I think about them that they are shirk sometimes please help quick I feel as if I don’t care but I want to care I feel as if I don’t care about being a non Muslim when I’m reality I don’t want to be a non Muslim