does this mean the prophet Muhammad saw may not love me because I'm not an Arab?
Assalam o Alaikum rahamtullahi wa baraukuthu.
How can a person whom Allah has sent as mercy to mankind hate people who are not arab???
Abu Nadrah reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said during the middle of the day at the end of the pilgrimage, “
O people, your Lord is one and your father Adam is one. There is no favor of an Arab over a foreigner, nor a foreigner over an Arab, and neither white skin over black skin, nor black skin over white skin, except by righteousness. Have I not delivered the message?” They said, “The Messenger of Allah has delivered the message.”
Source: Musnad Aḥmad 22978
Grade:
Sahih (authentic) according to Ibn Taymiyyah
A person who has taqwa is superior to these who have no taqwa or lower taqwa. Perhaps you have more taqwa than these people, you might be superior to them in sight of your Lord. Allah knows best
You are really living in so much oppressed area, I suggest that if you have money, and become patient, you should move to other friendly muslim In sha Allah, there's nothing wrong with that. Prophet peace be upon him's early followers did migrate to Abynssina which was first hijrah. An Christian king was just toward them, he gave them protection and refused to hand them back to Quraysh. Leave these people alone to be judged by Allah. There are two hadiths
Abu Hurayrah
reported that the Prophet
said: “
He who has done a wrong that affects his brother's honour or anything else, let him ask his forgiveness today before the time (i.e., the Day of Resurrection) when he will have neither a Deenaar nor a Dirham. (On that Day), if he has done some good deeds, a portion equal to his wrongdoings will be subtracted from them; but if he has no good deeds, he will be burdened with the evil deeds of the one he had wronged in the same proportion.” [Al-Bukhari]
Abu Hurayrah
reported: “
The Messenger of Allah said: “Do you know who is the bankrupt one?” The people said: ‘The bankrupt among us is the one who has neither money nor property.’ He said: “The real bankrupt one of my nation would be he who would come on the Day of Resurrection having (performed) prayers, (observed) fasting and (spent in) charity, (but he will find himself bankrupt on that Day due to depleting these good deeds) because he despised others, uttered slanderous terms against others, unlawfully devoured the wealth of others, shed the blood of others, and beat others. Therefore his good deeds would be credited to the account of those (who suffered at his hand). If his good deeds are exhausted, their sins (i.e., those he oppressed) will be entered in his account and he will be thrown into the (Hell) Fire.” [Muslim]
You have your rights to make duas against the opppressors, nothing wrong with that, my brother.
In another narration, the Prophet of Allah
said: "
There are three persons whose supplications are never rejected: The just leader, the fasting person when he breaks his fast, and the oppressed when he supplicates and whose supplication is raised above the clouds and the gates of heaven are opened for it, and (to whom) Allah will say: 'By My Glory! I shall assist you, even if it is after a while.'" [At-Tirmithi]
Mu`ath
reported that the Messenger of Allah
dispatched him (as governor of Yemen) and instructed him thus: “
Beware of the supplication of the oppressed, for there is no barrier between it and Allah.” [Al-Bukhari and Muslim]
It is very dangerous to oppresse people because the supplication of the opressseed has no barrier.
My mother is getting angry at me for going to the mosque
This is serious matter, you need to respect your parents. I told you to perform prayers in your home, Allah knows your intention. Allah doesn't want to put any difficulties in you, so your mother is right, because you are putting yourself in troubles... You are suffering from mental problems as you told us before, so stay in your home and perform prayers in it, nothing wrong with that, my brother. Allah has told us to respect our parents. Taking care of parents is better than going for jihad.
Sahih Bukhari 3004
Narrated `Abdullah bin `Amr:
A man came to the Prophet (ﷺ) asking his permission to take part in Jihad. The Prophet (ﷺ) asked him, "Are your parents alive?" He replied in the affirmative. The Prophet (ﷺ) said to him, "Then exert yourself in their service."
Abdullah ibn Mas’ud reported: I asked, “O Messenger of Allah, which deed is best?” The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “
Prayer in its proper time.” I asked, “What is next?” The Prophet said, “
Good treatment of your parents.” I said, “What is next?” The Prophet said, “
Jihad in the way of Allah.” I became silent and if I had asked him more, he would have told me.
Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 2630, Ṣaḥīḥ Muslim 85
Grade:
Muttafaqun Alayhi (authenticity agreed upon) according to Al-Bukhari and Muslim
You should always respect your parents as long as their orders are not sinful. and if it is sinful, don't act harsh, act gently with them. This was even ordered by Allah in Quran
[h=4]Sahih International[/h][h=2]But if they endeavor to make you associate with Me that of which you have no knowledge, do not obey them but accompany them in [this] world with appropriate kindness and follow the way of those who turn back to Me [in repentance]. Then to Me will be your return, and I will inform you about what you used to do.[/h]
Surah Luqman 31:15
Don't let yourself get hurt. Ask Allah to help you, grant you strength against the oppressors.