Salam brothers and sisters!
I've been really concerned lately about how much I should do to reach the highest rank in jannah. I already do voluntary fasting and praying, I read quran daily and memorize it. I watch islamic videos and read books to gain knowledge. I do all the dhikr possible for example subhanallah,alhamdulillah, etc...a 100 times a day and I recite all the important dua's for morning end evening. Really everything. But i feel like its not enough. Eventhough it sounds a lot, I still have a lot of free time because of staying home because of corona. I feel soo pressured and lately anxiety hits me because of my rank in jannah. I have a really ambitious personality and I always want the best so I wanna do my best but i feel like i need something else to do than just Islam. I have gotten soo depressed focusing soo much on Islam. I'm actually interested in starting my own business but i feel anxious knowing i could have spent that time to read quran or something else. Also theres a hadith saying something like 'recite and rise' your rank shall be at the last verse you memorized. Is that authentic? Because this hadith brought me to the idea to memorize the whole quran but i realize i overestimate myself with that. It really brings me down knowing i have to memorize the whole quran to get the highest rank. Im soo confused. How much is enough to get the highest rank? Can i also have some time for myself and still get the highest rank? I feel like one has to spend 24/7 with islam in order to get there.
I've been really concerned lately about how much I should do to reach the highest rank in jannah. I already do voluntary fasting and praying, I read quran daily and memorize it. I watch islamic videos and read books to gain knowledge. I do all the dhikr possible for example subhanallah,alhamdulillah, etc...a 100 times a day and I recite all the important dua's for morning end evening. Really everything. But i feel like its not enough. Eventhough it sounds a lot, I still have a lot of free time because of staying home because of corona. I feel soo pressured and lately anxiety hits me because of my rank in jannah. I have a really ambitious personality and I always want the best so I wanna do my best but i feel like i need something else to do than just Islam. I have gotten soo depressed focusing soo much on Islam. I'm actually interested in starting my own business but i feel anxious knowing i could have spent that time to read quran or something else. Also theres a hadith saying something like 'recite and rise' your rank shall be at the last verse you memorized. Is that authentic? Because this hadith brought me to the idea to memorize the whole quran but i realize i overestimate myself with that. It really brings me down knowing i have to memorize the whole quran to get the highest rank. Im soo confused. How much is enough to get the highest rank? Can i also have some time for myself and still get the highest rank? I feel like one has to spend 24/7 with islam in order to get there.